authentically JENNY:)

Kor kor!

2011-04-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

I've always wanted a big brother, ever since i was a kid.

Today on my way to school in the MRT, I observed a little girl and her older brother sitting just beside me. I was one station away from Bishan, from where I had to take another two more trains to reach school.

The little girl and her brother had a relatively large age gap; the girl was probably a lower primary student, and her brother an upper secondary student. Yet, despite their age gap, their relationship caused my heart to melt.

The little girl was playing with her brothers comparatively large hands. It intrigued me because most brothers would find their little sisters annoying. This brother didn't. He patiently and willingly allowed his sister to 'tease' him. He looked upon his sister with such compassion and tenderness. And his sister? When she gazed up at her brother, her eyes reflected admiration, respect and love.

That scene really made my heart melt. It was the sweetest sight I ever beheld, even sweeter than the sight of seeing two lovers. It reminded me of my yearning to have an older brother.

I'm the oldest sibling at home, and i often wonder what it would be like to be taken care of by an older sibling, instead of shouldering all the responsibilities.

Well, i guess this dream will forever remain unfulfilled.

Still, i really long to sincerely and lovingly call someone my Kor.

(Literally) A Word of Advice

2011-01-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

I remember the last time i didn't take my mum's advice; i got hurt real bad.

Today, my dad gave me advice. To sum up his words of wisdom in one word, it is 'wait'.

Advice. I'd be a fool not to take it.

Obey your parents.

Your Will Be Done

2011-01-14T20:36:00.007+08:00

Hey! This is my first entry in 2011. I didn't update earlier cause i've been really busy. Oh, by the way, I'm 17 already! Okay, that was random and irrelevant.

Anyway, i collected my O level results recently. I am extremely, completely, utterly, absolutely satisfied with my results, and even more thankful to GOD for being so gracious, faithful and good. Man, even that is understatement. I'm more like, overjoyed, and God is way too awesome for words to describe. Any word used to describe God is belittling Him. Indescribable.

Also, i've submitted the JAE form yesterday. So now, i'm just gonna trust God for whatever school i get posted into. Wherever He places me, He has a purpose for me.

Moving away from the above topic.

A few weeks back, I told God about my desire of wanting to (officially) be in a relationship with a close someone. I was frustrated, cause i wanted it, but it wasn't the right time, and it may not even be what God wants. So in the end, i just surrendered my dream to Him, because it's not about what i want, but about what He wants (Luke 9:23). The things He wants for me are way bigger and way more awesome.

God also reminded me of this poem written by Russel Kelfer, called Wait.

Wait by Russel Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? you say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

"My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
Or even a 'no' to which I can resign.

"You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting for what?"

He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

"I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.

"You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

"The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I'm doing in you.

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait."

(my own)
Whether or not my dream comes true
You are forever good
And I will forever praise You

2010 to 2011

2010-12-31T22:22:00.002+08:00

Hey! I'm back after not posting for the whole month. Hehe.

Well, this month has been reeeeeeally packed, which is why i haven't been updating. Went for mission trip to Thailand (which was awesomeeee!), had Christmas outreach "Bag-teria" from 23 to 25 December, and then went for the VOICES Breakthrough Camp, which just ended yesterday. An action-packed month, but one that is very fufilling and meaningful for me.

And now the year 2010 is coming to an end. Looking back, God has been faithful throughout the year. He has given and taken. 2010 was a year of endings, beginnings, and continuations. God has been good, He is good, and He will always be good. I love my God!

So now, it's 10.45pm. Another 1 hour 15 minutes till 2011. 2010 was great. 2011 will be even better. If anything, there's one thing that i've learnt: put God first.

2011, here i come!

If Goodbyes Were Only Until Tomorrow

2010-12-01T20:06:00.004+08:00

Man, my emotions are all out of sorts today. I can't believe I'm in distress just because ______. Okay, so maybe that is important to me, but it's a small thing. ...

It's a small thing, right? ...

Sigh. I am in denial. I'm trying to ignore it, telling myself that it's not as important as I think it is. Who am I kidding? It means a lot to me.

I wish goodbyes were only until tomorrow.

Carpe Diem

2010-11-19T15:53:00.002+08:00

Hey! O levels are over (ended on monday)!

So now, it's the holidays. There'll be loads of events coming up, especially in december. I don't know if I should be excited or not. Excited because, well, many fun stuff are gonna happen in december. Being a helper in the Mandarin ministry's camp (and getting paid for it), mission trip to Thailand, Christmas Outreach, Chirstmas Musical, VOICES breakthrough etc. Not excited, because everything is happening so quickly.

Sometimes I wish life would slow down a little, so that I can catch my breath. Living in a fast-paced world can really leave you tired and breathless. So much to do, so little time.

Which is why the phrase 'carpe diem' is very important to me now. It is something that I'm gonna apply to my life. Not that it means that I'm going to be an impulsive person, but it just means that i'm gonna make full use of every opportunity and every second that God gives me.

I will make this holiday a well-spent and meaningful one.

Carpe diem. Seize the day!

Healer

2010-10-19T17:53:00.002+08:00

O levels in 6 days!

I want O's to be over nowwwwww. It's so annoying. >:(

p.s. I miss you so much, I'm gonna die :(

He is the Ultimate Healer. I believe that He can and will heal you.

It's All About God

2010-10-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hey! Just came back from church. I usually don't blog about what happens, but today has been really meaningful.

At 3pm today, I went to church for the Creative Arts Ministry meeting. The Creative Arts Ministry consists of the worship team and Kairos (dance ministry). Pastor Matt was the one who anchored and led the meeting.

During the meeting, we discussed about our unhappiness in the ministry (if there were any) and what could be done to improve the ministry. Besides that, Pastor Matt also shared some things that really convicted me, and I believe, the rest of the people in the ministry.

He asked us what the greatest commandment in the Bible was. It is 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and mind', and the next one being 'Love your neigbour as yourself' and 'Love your enemy'. Then Pastor Matt asked all of us, "What does it mean to love yourself?"

A couple of answers were put forward, such us 'pampering yourself', 'respecting yourself' and 'accepting yourself for who God made you to be'. Then Pastor Matt told us to notice how the command 'Love your neighbour as yourself' is phrased such that its focus is on others. In other words, if your focus is on loving yourself, you cannot love others. But if your focus is on loving others, then you will be able to love others like how you love yourself.

In the same way, in ministry, if we lose sight of our main focus, which is God, we would feel unhappy in ministry because we do not see the main reason as to why we serve. Therefore it is important that we fix our eyes on Jesus.

Furthermore, being in the Creative Arts Ministry, we have a tendency to merely 'perform' so that we would shine. But the paradigm shift that we have to make is that JESUS shines when we serve Him.

Pastor Matt also talked about vision. He asked us, "What is your vision for this ministry?" He then shared his own vision for the ministry. His vision was for us to not just serve God through music in the church, but to also bring God's music out into the world, to the masses, so that through the musical talents that He has given us, He will be glorified and people will come to know Jesus. He also shared about reaching out to not just the 'normal' people, but to people who are disabled and etc. Because Jesus died for ALL, and so we should love others just as He loves us. It was an awesome vision. It really impacted and inspired me.

I play so that He will be glorified. I play only for Him, my Lord and Saviour.

Your vision for your life cannot be bigger than your vision for the Ministry.

2010-09-23T16:07:00.004+08:00

The night air was cool and dry and the atmosphere was relaxed. Underneath our shoes, the dry grass made crunching noises. It had been a wonderful evening spent with this particular Thai family. Dinner, dancing, singing, balloons, performances. It was almost time to leave, but there was one last thing left to do. The lanterns.

Soon, they were brought out of the house. Tons of them. I cheered and applauded gleefully as Papa took one of the lanterns and a small mound of wax. Slowly, my family and I carefully unfolded the fragile paper thing and placed the wax on the thin but sturdy metal frame.

Then, with a lighter in his hand, Papa moved the small orange flame towards the mound of wax. Mummy, my sister and I gently tilted the lantern to allow easier entrance of the fire into the lantern. It did not take long for the wax to burst into bright golden flames. The warm orange glow of the fire caused our faces to light up with a soft radiance.

We held on to the lantern for another few minutes. Hot air began to build up in the lantern and it was soon bloated and ready. Still, the four of us did not loosen our grip just yet. The other families were still busy with their lanterns, and so we waited patiently for them. It did not take long for them to be done though. Moreover, the lantern that my family and I were holding on to was becoming even hotter than before, as if it was angry at us for holding it back from its flight.

Then, it was time.

All of the families, including mine, released the lanterns and they floated up into the night sky. It was as if they weighed nothing at all. The lanterns flew higher and lit up the sky, making the cold and dark night seem brighter and warmer. Soon, the lanterns were mere specks of light in the sky, like tiny golden diamonds on a sheet of black.

It was a beautiful sight. All we could do was stand in awe and wonder.

We watched until the lanterns got carried further away by the wind, until the clouds hid them, until they had flown all the way to the heavens.

Some Photos from Dec 2009 - Udon Thani Mission Trip, Kongming lanterns

Memories.

Save Me

2010-09-11T22:04:00.002+08:00

Hey. I'm back, but only because I need to get something off my chest (not like it would solve anything, but I need release).

It's either I wish that I didn't say 'yes' two years ago, or that I wish that I have never met you. If I had said no, I would have learnt nothing. If I had never met you, my life would never be the same; I would have one less blessing in my life.

So now I don't know what I wish for.

It's either I get rid of this, or you.

But I can't.

I don't want to hurt either one.

God, please, help me. Save me. Save me from myself.

The Difference between Happiness and Joy

2010-05-14T12:33:00.004+08:00

I was just thinking. Ever heard of the cliche line "Money can't buy you happiness"? Well, it can. Money can buy you happiness, but it can't buy you joy.

The difference is: happiness is external but joy is internal. What makes people happy, usually comes from external sources, like material things or when your fiance asks for your hand in marriage and gives you a ring and bouquet of roses. It's the same with money; money is external, it is of the world.

Unlike happiness, joy comes from within. Joy is being with a loved one. Joy is being away from a loved one, but believing that God is watching over him/her and that he/she is okay. Joy is facing a trial or difficulty, but still being able to praise God and be content, because you believe that things will be all right. Joy is being able to help someone, even if you may need some help yourself. Joy is from the inside out. Money cannot buy such things.

Money can buy you happiness, but it can't buy you joy.

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

I want it

2010-04-29T20:37:00.000+08:00

'Cause everyone needs forgiveness.

Rainbow

2010-04-22T11:49:00.002+08:00

Hey ho! It's a humid thursday afternoon. Yes, I'm not in school, because I don't have to go to school today. Why? Because my midyear exams ended yesterday, and technically, today is the very last paper, which is F'n'N, but i don't take that subject, so i don't have to go to school. Yay! :D Furthermore, tomorrow will be a relaxing day, because it'll be Sports Day, which means no lessons! :D

Anyway, the rest of this blog entry will be in Mandarin (many people use the terms 'Chinese' and 'Mandarin' interchangeably, without actually realising that Chinese is a race, while Mandarin is a language). So, if you can't stand your own mother tongue (that is, if you're reading this and you're indeed Chinese), then for you, my blog entry shall end here :) :)

p.s. I've always wondered what 'ttm' stands for, and I just found out that it stands for 'to the max'. Haha! Short forms nowadays are interesting ttm, no? :) Haha man, I feel so weird using short forms.

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我站在书房的窗口前，傻傻地看着浅蓝色的天空。刚刚下了一场小雨，所以空气有一个清凉的感觉。金黄色的太阳慢慢地从乌云的影子里爬出来，它温暖的阳光照在屋顶上。我站在那儿，一直在欣赏上帝所创造的，但心里觉得有一点儿紧张，一点儿担忧。我一直挂念着他；我的心里觉得非常沉重。突然，一个多色的彩虹在那浅蓝色的天空中出现了。我一时愣住了，不停地看着那美丽的东西。

“不要担心，不要害怕。。。一切都会没事的。”

我不禁地微笑了，心里突然觉得十分平静。

Yay!

2010-04-21T14:48:00.001+08:00

Midyear exmas are OVERRR yeah! :D

p.s. Sara Bareilles and Esmee Denters rock!

Haunting Dreams

2010-04-12T15:24:00.002+08:00

In the midst of midyear exams, so i won't be updating for a while. I will be back before you can say abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz 10000000000000000000000000000000 times!

Bye! :)

I don't want nightmares again...three consecutive nights of the same type of dream is enough. Please, I need sleep. I want to be rested, I want to be at peace, I want to be still and know that You are God.

Not So Much Of A Disaster

2010-04-05T22:02:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness!!! My phone's memory card has gone absolutely insane. My card memory got wiped out, and for no reason at all! All my photos in my memory card has totally disappeared without a trace. We're talking almost 200 photos, dating back since last year till now. Like, what the shalabaladingdong! Crap lahhhhhhhh :( :( :( Sad.

On the contrary, my sister and I had a awesome fun time dancing to the song Lemontree when it was played on some special karaoke channel (yes, cable has that channel!). We danced according to the dance steps that were taught to us during last year's WEB camp. So funnn! Haha. Our routine sent our parents guffawing, and I was laughing so hard, I couldn't breathe properly! Hahaha :D

Okay this one's done. Goodnight, good people!

It's The Best Day Ever

2010-04-01T22:04:00.004+08:00

Hey! I really thank God for today :) I kinda lazy to type it out in detail, and besides, it's getting late and I have to go for BB/GB Enrolment Service tomorrow (despite it being Good Friday!). Well, here are a coupla things I thank God for today:

1. Li Ting is feeling much better. We had napfa test today, and we ran 2.4. Li Ting and I ran together. Eight rounds around the carpark! So yeah. During the last few rounds, Li Ting got breathless, so we walked together and sort of rested; then we continued. At the last round, it was tough to continue running, not just for her, but for me too. Li Ting felt like stopping; I told her to persevere. She asked me to hold her hand, and I did. Together, hand in hand, like sisters, we ran the final lap and finished 2.4. I was ecstatic, like "Praise the Lord!" However, Li Ting didn't feel well after that; she had massive stomach contractions and she vomitted. I was so worried, but God was good and He watched over her. In the end, the teacher came, bought her milo. Then I brought her to the sick bay. She's much better now; thank you God! :)

2. Went shopping (sort of) with Viola (yay!), Adelene, Stella and a-guy-whom-I-know-his-name-but-I-don't-know-how-to-spell-it. Viola bought a dress (and she looks so pretty in it, I tell you!) and a flower ring (very pretty!); I bought makeup remover and a shiny pink 'shield' (it's actually a ring, but it looks like armor for your finger = cute). It was the first time meeting Stella, and she's a really nice girl :) and Adelene is her usual hyperactive self. Hahaha! Both of us were laughing like mad women. Also, we conversed using the LKL accent (somewhat, haha!).

3. Tomorrow is Good Friday, Saturday's the Love Is concert, Sunday is Easter! Hallelujah!

Alright gotta go. I need to read my Bible and sleep. Goodnight world :)

p.s. Happy April Fools'! (And it's a meaningless festival too, if it's even considered a festival, ha! But at least it makes people laugh, especially students when we play tricks on teachers :O)
p.p.s. Just in case you think this post is an April Fools' joke (so lame, please!), it's not. It's a genuine blog entry :)

:(

2010-03-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

I feel so discouraged.

Easter's coming!

2010-03-16T17:21:00.003+08:00

Hello! It's Tuesday and it's the fourth day into the March 'holidays'. Yes, notice the inverted commas for they signify contradiction :) Anyway, I have a feeling that my voice is improving, though how fast/slow, I do not know. But nevertheless, thank you God for blessing me with my voice and musical skills! I promise You that I will continue to use my talents for Your glory. Amen! :)

Speaking of the March holidays, I have a lot of work to do! In fact, I'm supposed to be doing a write-up about Body Worlds, like, right now :/ Plus, I still have holiday lessons. Haha, holiday lessons, so ironic.

Okay, enough chit-chat... Oh yes! Almost forgot. On 3 April 2010, my church's (Covenant Evangelical Free Church) youth ministry (WEB, Where Eternity Begins) will be holding an Easter concert entitled "LOVE IS". The concert will address what love is and also talk about God's love through songs such as Long Song by Sara Bareilles, Love Story by Taylor Swift, Perfect by Simple Plan, Halo by Beyonce and many more.

Visit my youth ministry's youtube channel for more info! http://www.youtube.com/user/whereTernitybegins

Haha, it's like i'm doing publicity here. By the way, if any of you are reading this, you know me (as in, you know me in person) and you're interested in going for the concert, do let me know, 'cause i have the concert admission passes! Haha :D And the concert is FREE OF CHARGE! :)

Okay, really gotta start doing my homework now. Bye and God bless!

After Eons

2010-03-12T21:50:00.002+08:00

Hey! :) I'm back again. It seems that i'm really bad at updating my blog regularly, for a couple of reasons which are self-explanatory. Hohoho. And i guess i'm updating again because i'm bored. Hohum.

Plus, I just realised something. Everytime I blog, it's like I'm talking to myself (because I highly doubt anyone reads my blog in the first place) and it's pretty ironic, cause blogs are meant for other people to read, and when you blog for yourself to read only, then it isn't really called a blog anymore, rather, it should be called a diary, but it's still called a blog cause it's on the Internet, and when it's on the Internet, people can still read your blog. Gah, i just confused myself :/ or maybe it's because i don't have a tagboard or chatbox or whatever you people call it. But no, nothing is going to convince me to put up tagboard. I don't welcome immature spammers who post hurtful and insolent messages.

Anyway, diverting from that point, i got back my result slip today. It's pretty okay, and i thank God i made improvement in most of my subjects :) However, i still hope to do better for some of the others. O LEVELS!

Ohoh! I also found Yi Chong's blog a short while ago, not quite by accident. Heehee :P

Alright, gotta go! TGIF :) Ciao.

In the stillness, I kneel and pray
Seeking my Father's face
Believing you'd return one day
To Him, and never stray

Delivered

2010-02-07T17:22:00.002+08:00

Hello!!! I'm back after eons of not posting. Heh, guess I've been really lazy and busy :P

I was reading back at some of my previous blog entries (again, it's a habit) and they seem to be reeeeeeeally depressing. Haha. Well, those days are over, I guess. It's 2010 (I know, I'm late, haha)! It's a new beginning (sort of). God has delivered me and seen me through it all. Those days of pain and struggle are over, and now I look forward to what God has planned for me (and for *insert name here*). :) So yeah, I've been praying (though my prayer time can be improved) for people (I will not be specific).

Speaking of 2010, I'm sec 4 now, O levels this year! The amount of work has just increased by 7654343345678934 times. Haha yes, that was a random number :)

Hmm, this is a very random blog entry. Ha! And I still wonder how many people or who actually read my blog. Hmm...

Alright, I had better log off now. SEC 4 WORK LOAD x9876543456787261. God bless you all! Happy Lunar New Year in advance!

Jesus, you are my King!

I. Don't. Understand.

2010-01-18T19:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel that I don't really know you at all. Sometimes I feel that I don't understand you. I really want to help you, but I don't know how. Sometimes what you say and what you do completely contradict each other; they just don't make any sense. You're this person in church, another person in school, someone else in front of your parents, a different person when you're with me. I find it so hard to understand you fully. Sometimes I thought I've hit the jackpot, I thought I've finally understood you; that is until you do or say something which is, ironically, different from what you've done or said earlier on.

I wish I can understand you, I wish I can fully comprehend what you go through, but I cannot, 'cause I'm not God. Furthermore, you blame God, you struggle, but it shouldn't be that way. I really wish I can make you understand how much Jesus loves you. God did not say in the Bible that we Christians will have an easy life. In fact, it is the reverse. We should suffer for Jesus, just as how Paul did, and many other prophets in the Bible. God did not promise a carefree Christian life, but He promised that He will never forsake you (in the book of Deuteronomy), He promised to prosper you and to give you hope (in the book of Jeremiah).

I feel like I cannot do anything but to pray for you, and possibly, pray with you too. Pray and trust. I know it'll get better, you just have to wait upon the Lord and He will renew your strength. Don't give up on your faith, press on.

Take care alright? Though I doubt you'll be reading this.

Why Should I

2010-01-04T22:23:00.001+08:00

I don't have to listen to you. Why should I give you that information? That person is the third party, the innocent party. Furthermore, she's my friend. Why should I ask her a seemingly harmless question, but have an ulterior motive for doing so? I am telling you right now (most likely, you will never ever get to read this, but heck, I need to get this off my chest) that I will not listen to you. God gave you a mouth, you can go ask her yourself. I don't care even if you take more revenge on me, I'm not scared of you. Giving me 'payback' just shows a lot about your character. I'm very disappointed in you. I really care for you, you mean a lot to me, you know? ...

I don't have to do as you say. I guess one of words that you know best is 'manipulation'.

Cat Got My Tongue

2010-01-03T15:32:00.002+08:00

Hey. It's the third day of 2010, and it doesn't feel any different from 2009. Well, my birthday's tomorrow and I'll be 16 years old! :) Oh, school starts tomorrow too (except for all those people who are waiting to get their O level results) :(

So yesterday marked the beginning of a new chapter. God answered my prayers, showing that He is faithful. I love Jesus! :)

Yet today, it feels like everything just went back to 'normal'. I won't explain what happened. All I can say is that I was really (genuinely) cheerful at first when I stepped into JD, then, I became really shocked and kinda disappointed. And then, when I got home, I realised that I had fallen for it (again).

It was his plan...

Now, I don't know what to do anymore, I really don't know.

I hate myself

2009-12-28T18:22:00.002+08:00

I thought that everything would be okay, everyone would finally be at peace. I thought wrong. I didn't mean to hurt you, I just wanted the best for everyone, I just wanted to obey God, follow Jesus. I'm sorry, please forgive me. Please. I still want to be friends. Please. Please be okay. Please.

God please let him be okay. Let there be unity, trust, understanding. Please.

Convicted

2009-12-25T20:18:00.002+08:00

Hey :) Firstly, MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope that you will find the true meaning of Christmas, and that is Jesus Christ!

Well, I just came back from WEB Turning Points Camp, camp ended at 1.30pm yesterday. One word to describe the camp: AWESOME! It was fun, and I made new friends (Josh and Seth)! Continuing from that point, I feel that Josh and I get along well, even though I've only known him since monday. Cool :)

Anyway, the camp wasn't just fun, it was meaningful too. God's presence was really at the camp, and many of us cried because we were touched by God's love for us. It's really hard to describe, but I left the camp feeling convicted and not just feeling a spiritual high. It was on the third night of the camp, during the sermon titled 'Turning to Jesus'. I knelt down (despite my scraped knee) and prayed and cried. I told God that I wanted to honour Him in all that I do and some other personal stuff which I won't share on a blog.

Tomorrow is the day after Christmas (I like to call it 'belated Christmas'). Mag talked to me during the camp and told me to consider something. I've been thinking about it too, but I really don't know. I went to the camp expecting God to (literally) tell me what I should do next, but God spoke to me in a totally different way from what I've expected. I prayed to God today and asked Him to give me courage, the right words and an opportunity to sort things out with someone tomorrow. I somehow feel that God is leading me that way.

Mmhm. Okay, this blog entry has become kinda depressing. Hmm, no, maybe I'm just being reflective (which is good, I guess).

I won't be afraid because God will always be with me until the very end of the age. Amen! :)

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T - Transformation
U - Unity
R - Real
N - New beginnings

A new beginning is coming.

I'm backkkkkkkkkkk!

2009-12-20T13:44:00.002+08:00

Hello! :) I just came back from mission trip (to Udon Thani, Thailand) on friday night. The mission trip was awesome! We took a lot of photos, so it'll be quite impossible for me to post it all here. I also will not type about the trip, simply because it is just too awesome for words. So, for the pictures, you have to go to my facebook account :)

Also, last night was the Christmas service at WEB. Jan, Vivienne and Eunice came back from Cananda and USA respectively. Welcome home, girls! Glad that you can join us :) Frankly speaking, they haven't changed one bit, maybe only having slightly different hairstyles and hair colour (Eunice!).

Okay gotta go. Will upload the photos on the mission trip soon. Facebook is so slow! :(

Bye!

Love is God, because God is love! ...
I am not afraid. My God is so much bigger than my problems, and He is definitely bigger than you.

Mildly Depressed Within

2009-12-10T20:23:00.003+08:00

Hey. I cried my eyes out yesterday, cried until they were swollen, red and painful. What else can I say. (Note that that was a statement, not a question.)

Anyway, I'll be flying of to Thailand this saturday for a mission trip. I'm pretty excited about it, I went last year too. Also, Eunice and Jan are coming back during the time I'm away for missions, which means I'll most likely see them in church next saturday 19 december, Christmas at WEB (that's another thing i'm excited about and dreading at the same time; I hate mixed-up emotions).

Okay gotta go. Mhmm.

I used to be so genuinely cheerful, but now i'm using it to disguise my pain and struggle. Where has it all gone? I want to be genuinely cheerful, to find that joy in my life again.

God, I know You will deliver me.

Save Me

2009-12-06T19:54:00.002+08:00

God, save me, i'm dying on the inside. Please save me, i'm really desperate, i need You, i am nothing without You. Please save me, i am helpless. Save me.

At Peace Amidst The Storm

2009-12-04T14:30:00.002+08:00

I feel at peace, even though it's not resolved. Two nights ago, i let it go to Him, not giving up, but giving in to His will and control. God has His ultimate plan for me and for him, so i'm gonna trust Him for all that is to come this december and for the rest of me life. DECEMBER IS HERE! I should be excited. I'm gonna take that step of faith, no matter what happens. Not that i'm ignorant of the situation, but I will pull through.

Jesus, take the wheel, take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go, so give my one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel

Your Will Be Done

2009-12-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

So what can I say and what can I do,
But offer this heart, O God, completely to You.

I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned,
In awe of the One who gave it all;
I'll stand, my soul, LORD, to You, surrendered,
All I am is Yours.

When i'm blind to my way, open my eyes to the work of Your hand. Let Your will be done.

Wolverine

2009-11-26T15:37:00.003+08:00

Hello there!

I just came back from Student Leadership Camp '09 yesterday. I won't elaborate too much, but i do want to mention a thing or two about my group, Wolverine.

Well, despite it being exhausting, i had a lot of fun bonding with my group members. Hanafi and i were the main facilitators for the group. My group was called Wolverine, and the people in my group are absolutely awesome! I really love my group members so much, i'm so proud of them! They're very enthusiastic. They've really put in a tremendous amount of effort and in the end, we emerged as the champion group among the other ten groups! Awesome stuff! Haha oh man i'm so happy :)

This is my group! :D

Love you all a lot! Hanafi, Khairul, Regine, Madeline, Nora, Izyan (awesome dancer!), Syafiqah, Charissa, Rabiatul, Yanty, Silvia, Jovitha, Diane (who is not in the picture above because she went for her basketball competition), Jethro, Xi Beng (the crazy and playful guy who made me fall down :P), Farid and Hakim. You guys rock!

Wolverine ♥

Hosea's Wife

2009-11-13T21:48:00.004+08:00

Heyo! It's getting late, and i should be going to sleep soon, but i just wanna pen my thoughts down first.

Earlier in the afternoon, i listened to a song called Hosea's Wife. Yes, it's an awesome song written and sung by Brooke Fraser. Awesome singer-songwriter she is. I love her songs 'cause they're deep and meaningful, not shallow and it's-fun-but-i-don't-know-what-i'm-singing-but-whatever type of songs.

Most people wouldn't be able to dechiper the meaning of the song Hosea's Wife. I didn't understand the song at first. Only after i read the book of Hosea in the Bible, then i understood the meaning.

In the book of Hosea, it talks about Hosea's wife. Hosea's wife was an unfaithful woman who was an adulteress.

In the song Hosea's Wife, it talks about us (particularly Christians) being similar to Hosea's wife in the Bible. Not that we're prostitutes or anything, but we are unfaithful to God, 'cause we have sin our lives and such. The song also addresses the question 'what do we live for?'.

Speaking of which, what or who DO we live for? For us Christians in general, the 'model answer' would be 'i live for Jesus Christ', but do we really live for Him? When something or someone becomes more important than God in our lives, we aren't living for God anymore. Instead, we live for the thing or person that is the 'most important' in our lives. We 'worship' our priority in life. So what is your priority?

I admit that sometimes, i don't put Jesus first in my life and i live for something that is temporal. But i don't want to live for the temporary, because they don't last forever, only God lasts forever.

To God be all the glory! Ciao and goodnight :)

p.s. If you've read till here, you're awesome! God bless you! :)

Dear _ _ _ _,

My prayer for you is that you'll find the true purpose of life, that you will not feel that going to church is boring, that you will know and be convicted of the fact that living to have fun in this world is not the sole purpose of your life, and that you will turn back to God one day and worship and serve Him joyfully in His House. This is my prayer for you, because i care for you and love you.

Love,
Jenny

Whatnots

2009-11-10T17:32:00.002+08:00

Hey! Haven't been updating for awhile, been quite busy lately; schoolwork, mission trip preparations and whatnot. Haha. Oh and i love my new digital piano! It's so cool :)

Also, i've just written a new song, so it's a great accomplishment for me. Yay! Okay i'm ranting now.

Ciao.

Pianooooooo!

2009-11-04T15:50:00.002+08:00

Ah! I can't wait for saturday! Yesterday, my parents bought a digital piano with a single pedal for me, and i'll be getting it this saturday :D Yay! So eggcited! :D Praise the Lord!

A Short Review on Miley Cyrus

2009-11-02T14:36:00.003+08:00

Hello! Well, just thought of typing my thoughts down :)

I watched a video on youtube just now, and it was about Miley Cyrus' live performance of Party In The USA. Honestly, i'm not a fan of Miley, but i don't dislike her either. My feelings are quite neutral, actually, so i hope my 'review' is unbiased.

I feel that Miley's a really good singer and she's talented. However, i feel she grows up too fast. Well, nothing wrong with growing up, 'cause everyone has to grow up, but what she did in the live performance in the video was a bit inappropriate because it wasn't the right time for her to do so.

Furthermore, when i was watching the video, i felt worried for her. We all live in a corrupt world full of sin, and one of them, which i hate the most, is lust. I felt worried for Miley because of how she cause people to look at her in a lustful way and how people actually look at her in such a way. It really breaks my heart, and i believe it breaks His heart too.

The world will be a better place without that sin. Without lust.

Give Me A Sign

2009-11-01T21:22:00.005+08:00

I was reading through my older blog entries (those entries when i was in sec one), and it was kinda hilarious, because i realised how childish i was. My english was broken too! Hahaha.

Hmm well, i shan't update about today, except that Nick is still having his Os. All the best to you! :)

Speaking of Os, i have Chem SPA (science practical assessement) tomorrow. qwertyuioiksxxksjaskmz. Oh man i seriously don't what to type. Haha :P

Alrighty, since i am running out of words to type, i shall go to sleep now (or soon). Goodnight :)

Lord, give me a sign.

True Freedom

2009-10-30T21:20:00.005+08:00

When you think of 'freedom', what comes to your mind?

Independence? Able to do whatever you want, whenever you want, however you want?

Or how about this. When someone says 'Jesus is my freedom', what does that mean? ...

I was doing my quiet time and listening to this song called Here In My Life by Hillsong. Basically, the song is saying that Jesus is our freedom, and that without Jesus in our lives, we are nothing. And as i was listening to the song, i was reflecting about what it means to be free. I reflected on a lot things (which are quite personal, so yeah) and then i finally realised and concluded what being free actually means.

What 'Jesus is my freedom' means is that He died on the cross to pay for the sins of the world. In other words, Jesus has set us free from sin! We are no longer 'trapped' by sin. However, in order to truly be free, we have to LIVE like Jesus and for Jesus. Only when we realise this and turn back to God then can we be free. There's this saying (i can't remember who said it) which goes something along the lines of 'Salvation is free, but it comes with a cost.' So the 'cost' of salvation is to live like Him and for Him.

Yeap, so that is one of my dreams which i want to achieve, and which i want my family, friends, and people who mean a lot to me to achieve as well. Though we are physically free, we may not be spiritually free. Yeah, so that's my take on freedom.

Hosanna in the highest!

Blogging in Chinese

2009-10-30T14:39:00.001+08:00

嗨, 大家好! 今天, 我决定要使用华文来写博克. 好开心哦! :D 今天使用华文写博克的原因是因为我很想要进步我的母语. 哈哈! 这是一件不错的主义吧? :) 太好了! 真妙! 唉, 我现在感到真骄傲!

好的, 我别在说费话了. 今天本来是上学的最后一天, 但由我作为中三的, 星期一必须上学去. 再说, 星期一那天会有 'O' 水准化学实验. 好紧张哦! 但是我不用害怕, 因为主耶稣在我的身边. 阿门! :)

啊! 时间不早了(虽然现在只有下午三时二十分左右), 我得走了. 我觉得非常疲倦, 所以需要休息一会儿. 好哩, 下次再见吧! :)

Backpacking In Europe!

2009-10-27T15:31:00.002+08:00

Heyo! Well, i didn't REALLY go backpacking in Europe, though i wish i could. It'd be so much fun!

Anyway, this is just for fun :)

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You and your friends are going on a road trip. Woot!
There must be 4 of each gender.

You can bring 8 friends (you are 8) who are they and why ?
1. Myself. The question already said that i'm one of the eight people.
2. Viola! Can't leave out my best friend, can i? :)
3. Tiffany. She's a crazy girl, so we'll have to watch her. Haha :)
4. Clarice, because she's been to Europe before and will probably be more experienced.
5. Ian :) because because.
6. Nick :) because because. (i really can't think of a reason, so don't ask)
7. Erm...Ern? Haha, that'll be interesting :)
8. Jerome Lau. Haha, it'll be VERY interesting :D

Where are you guys headed for?
Backpacking in Europe! Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeden :D (Clarice! You've been there :])

You rent a van, there are only 8 seats. Who's sitting where, and who's driving?
Clarice is driving. She has a license (and i didn't even know that until recently! Haha!). Either Ern or Jerome would sit beside Clarice. Then Tiff, Viola and I would sit in the middle seats, and the rest of the guys at the back. (I cannot sit at the back cause i'll get car-sick!)

IN THE MORNING

Who brought the most luggage?
Viola, duh :D

Who came with no luggage at all?
Ian! Haha, just kidding. He probably won't bring a lot, but still got luggage :) but then again, it's backpacking in Europe, so too much luggage will be a burden.

Who got car sick?
Tiff, Viola and I.

Who makes the driver pull over so they can go pee in the woods?
Jerome? Haha!

LUNCHTIME

You stop for lunch, where at?
Some random food joint selling SweDISH. Hahaha! Oh man, i'm so lame, like seriously.

Who spills their pop in the van?
Ern. Haha so funny! And poor van :(

Who forgets their food under the seat and causes an ant problem?
Probably Jerome :P

What does everyone buy for food?
SweDISH! (okay, it's not that funny the second time :P)

AT THE MOTEL

You rent two rooms, each have 2 double beds but only one has an extra cot.

IN THE FIRST ROOM..
The guys.

ROOM 2
The girls.

Who Run's Through The Lobby All Night?
Ian, Tiffany and i don't know. Haha.

Who fell asleep first?
Hmm...Nick, Jerome and me? Aww :)

Who got up in the middle of the night and woke everyone up by accident?TIFFANY!

IN THE MORNING

Who takes over 3 hours to get ready?
Viola, duh :P

Who complains that the bagels are moldy?
All of us, i guess.

YOU GO TO AN AMUSEMENT PARK

Who goes on the rollercoaster 37 times in a row?
I'd go a few times, but not 37 times! That's nuts!

Who throws up on someone elses lap?
Viola throws up on...okay never mind :)

Who sits on the merry-go-round the whole time?
Tiffany :)

Who goes straight to the snack bar and gets a large popcorn, some cotten candy, an order of fries, 2 hotdogs, 2 bottles of coke and a caramel apple?The guys, because guys can eat a lot :) And i'll buy a hotdog, yay!

AT THE MALL

Who goes straight to the lingerie store?
I don't think there's a need for anyone to buy lingerie.

Who do you call to rub it in their faces, where you are?
No one. That's so mean!

Who tries to go up the escalator the opposite way?
Tiff and I :D Then we'll get all the others to do the same :)

What store does everyone spend their time:
Actually, why would we even go to a mall? We're backpacking man! Let's buy some Swedish cheese!

BACK AT THE MOTEL

Who wants to get drunk?
It's not right to get drunk. So NOBODY gets drunk. I'll make sure.

Who goes right to sleep?
Everyone except Ian.

Who's making out?
Silence.

Who's building a fort?
What? A fort? Haha!

Who's crying because they want to go home?
I can't imagine.

Who blasts music?
Erm...Nick? Haha, then we'll ask him to keep quiet. Just kidding! :)

Who cries because they didnt want to leave?
No one will cry, but i guess we will all miss Europe!

Who forgot luggage back at the motel?
Jerome. The genius :P

Who took pictures of the trip?
All of us la :)

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Ciao!

I've decided to revive it!

2009-10-16T17:17:00.003+08:00

Hello fellow human beings. I'm back to blogging! Still, i don't think i'll blog often, cause i've lost the hype of blogging. But anyway, it's good to be back! :)

And yes, exams are overrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Oh what a joy! Anyhow, O level SPA (science practical assessement) is up next month, so yeap, better study hard. But for now, i'll be 'taking a break' from my books until school reopens (which is on wednesday, woohoo 5-day weekend!).

Alrighty. Time to go. Ciao! :)

p.s. sorry, i've decided not to put a tagboard :)

Oh No

2009-06-28T21:25:00.001+08:00

School starts tomorrow. How nice.

Back For The Moment

2009-06-24T20:56:00.002+08:00

Surprise surprise! I'm back (but not 'officially', because i am NOT going to blog anymore, but i'm here typing these very words because, well, i feel like it)!

Yeap, i'm here just to rant, and i don't expect/wish/want anyone to read my blog, because it's utterly pointless.

So anyway, yet another sms has unknowingly disappeared from my inbox. And every time an sms disappears, it's always from the same person. You get it? It's like my phone/SIM card dislikes him. Sigh. But i don't. I don't dislike him, not at all. In fact, it's pretty much the opposite :)

Okay i'm done ranting. Who knows when i will update again. Mmhm.

Not Going To Run Away

2009-03-25T21:29:00.003+08:00

Hi there :) First of all, i'd like to wish my sister a happy belated 13th birthday to my sister! (her birthday was 23 March, two days ago).

Anyway, sorry for not posting so long (then not many people read my blog, but who cares).

21 March: I've Realised

Had worship rehearsals :)

Titus was playing the bass, Keith and Jon Lim on the e-guit, Ming Xuan on the drums. You know, with these kind of awesome people who are very good musicians, the music they play is awesome. They at first they kept jamming, playing jazzy songs and songs like I Shot The Sheriff (which is a really cool song, heh heh).

Anyway, Pris was worship leader, and so was Kim (though Kim kept saying "i'm co-leading"), and Priscy and i were BVs. :) So, we had soundcheck and then we started rehearsing the songs. The set was really awesome, we did the songs The Time Has Come, From The Inside Out (or FTIO, as Pris calls it :)), Came To my Rescue and You Shine.

After rehearsing, went for WG, but left early, cause i had to be back in the chapel by 6pm.

So, Kim and i went to the chapel. Then we went to Vista Point to buy dinner for the team. Ming Xuan was the only one who ordered minced meat noodles. Heh heh so special :)

After dinner, went back to the chapel for soundcheck, and we rehearsed once more. Saw Nick at the far end of the chapel, looking at me. He was wearing the Our Best Years t-shirt :)

Soon, service started (but it started a bit late). I didn't really sit through the whole sermon. Went outside, then Ethel spoke with me. Then Viola came out of the chapel and so did Jerome Lau and Ern (though, the sight of Jerome and Ern made me laugh, which is a good thing :)). I remember feeling really desperate, like i felt that there's no point in running away anymore, and some other personal which i won't type out here (definitely not).

Then, i went into the chapel again and sort of told Ian. I caught a glance of Nick, and then i just felt like i had to tell him tonight, and i saw him look at me. He smsed me, asking if i was ok...sigh, alright, i shall NOT provide anymore information (not at all). Blogs aren't reliable, hmpf.

After service, Ian told me to think about it, and that i have one whole week to think. I felt helpless, and he could tell that i felt helpless. Oh and i felt even more bad because i made Ian kor kor miss the coach to CCK mrt. I kept apologising, but he said it wasn't my fault when it obviously was. So, in the end, we took a cab back to CCK mrt, and Ian even paid for the taxi fare (which i did not want him to, after making him miss the coach), and he walked me home.

Alright that's all. I hope no one is reading this, heh heh. :)

Bye :)

p.s. thank you Ethel, Viola and Ian for being the greatest friends ever. God bless you! :D

Back From Badge Camp

2009-03-17T10:21:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone :) it's finally the March holidays! And i just came back from GB/BB Badge Camp last night :)

Just to sum it up, on saturday 14 March, the drill comp girls (including me) went for the National Drill Competition 2009. We did fancy drills and impromtu drills, and we got the SILVER award! We were so happy, we were screaming and clapping. Praise the Lord! :D

On sunday, we had first aid lessons. We learnt about CPR and about the different types of bleeding, etc. It was interesting but very confusing because there were so many things we need to rememeber! But it was something new, nonetheless.

Besides first aid, we also had Truth Experience games. We combined with BB and we played station games. We split up into groups, and Reena was our group leader. Reena is so cute, she hasn't change at all ever since sec one. :)

After the games, we watched the movie Facing The Giants in the AVA room. It was very nostalgic, it reminded me of last year's Church Camp.

On monday, which was yesterday, we cleaned up the place and had GB International badgework. Then we changed into our full-u (except for me and those in drill comp, we changed into our national tee). Then we had closing parade combined with 53rd and 84th BB adn 10th GB.

Overall, the camp was fun and i learnt a lot of stuff out of it. We 19th COY girls also gained something very precious: friendship and sisterhood. Yay! :)

Just A Summary

2009-03-11T20:09:00.006+08:00

Hi there :) been really really busy lately (and not to mention, very drained) because of school. So i really thank God that i can be sitting in front of the computer right now. :)

CAUTION! THERE'LL BE A LONG AND WORDY POST AHEAD!

Saturday, 7 March: To Ezra's House We Go

In the morning, i went to Viola's house to cycle! Whoo i missed cycling so much! Cycled around Viola's house downstairs and and around the void decks. It was an awesome time. (oh i forgot to take pictures! *groans*)

Then after that, we went upstairs, cleaned the bike wheels, ate lunch, showered. Then Viola and i were off to Ezra's house.

We arrived there at 2.30pm (which was super late, because WG starts at 4.30pm, and Ezra lives at Bukit Timah). The first thing i did when i stepped into Ezra's house was that i took a video (but of course, i said "hi" to Ezra first, then i took a video)...or rather i took two videos. :)

I was laughing like crazy and i couldn't even talk properly because it was so retardedly funny. Viola had to help me with some parts of the video. Ezra just thought i was being random (which was precisely what i was doing). Lol yeah but i'm too lazy to post the video here, so you'll have to visit my facebook to view the videos. :)

Anyway, we baked chocolate chip shortbread. It turned out quite alright. :) But then, we were late for WG, and Ezra blamed it on Viola and i. I remember feeling really bad. I had caused us to be late! Gosh.

We arrived in church at 5pm+. By that time, i felt extremely guilty, because i caused Viola and Ezra and i to be late...sigh. But WG was alright...i love WG :)

After WG, i discussed with the sec 3 girls about the Jubilee shirt and gave them the shortbread. :) Then, i went to Vista Point to have dinner with Nick and Viola. After dinner, Viola rushed off back to church because she had camp registration duty. So, i went with Nick to buy a peanut butter wafer, because Nick was still hungry.

After buying the wafer, Nick realised that he lost his black umbrella. So, i accompanied him back to the food court to help him look for his missing umbrella, but we didn't find it. Nick looked really troubled the whole time...poor thing. In the end, we gave up the search and we went back to church. He ate his wafer and we chatted. :)

Then, we went upstairs. Service started at 7pm. The sermon and worship was awesome. I remember crying as i prayed for my school friends during response time. I felt this strong, burning desire for Jesus Christ! :D

When service ended at 9.20pm or so, the worship team played the song Hosanna (not the Brooke Fraser one). Viola and i jumped up and down throughout the song. After the song, i shouted "hallelujah!" out loud and applauded. It was so awesome! God is great! :)
...
Ok i gotta go. Actually, many more things happened, but i don't really have the time to actually finish this post. I wish i could, though!

Goodnight :)

Hosanna in the highest.

p.s. remember to go to my facebook to see the videos:
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1102065756753#/video/video.php?v=1102066716777
and
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1102065756753#/video/video.php?v=1102065756753

Hosanna In the Highest

2009-03-01T21:15:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, Saturday, 28 Februay: A Prayerful Time

Yesterday was absolutely awesome.

During WG, we talked about last week's sermon, about right attitudes and wrong attitudes. We listed out a lot of right and wrong attitudes, and then we discussed. It was a rather pratical WG session. Mmhm :)

After that, i went to have dinner, or rather, i ate chocolate wafer and drank milo. I thought i had publicity briefing, but then Syahir injured his leg and so, the briefing was cancelled (poor Syahir...). So in the end, i chatted with Viola, told her about how i have failed a-math and listened to her tell me about how she got a C for biology. And i also got to chat with Nick :)

Service was kind of different, because the divider (or whatever-you-want-to-call-it) is spoiled, so the chapel was only half its size. So, all 200+ youth had to squeeze and sit on the floor. It was rather interesting :)

Sermon was incredible. Kat preached. When it was response time, we all prayed for our friends in school and for the Easter outreach in April, prayed really hard. Kat was crying as she prayed, Jon Q, Pris and Morgan prayed out loud. It was a whole new experience, and not just that. God's presence was there. We all just stood there, prayed, worshipped and praised God. It was awesome. God is awesome!

After service, I went to Nick to ask him to help me get Viola's bracelet off my arm, because it was stuck there, above my elbow.

Earlier, i put on Viola's bracelet, slid it all the way up to my shoulder and it slid down again to my elbow. Then, when i tried to remove the bracelet, i wouldn't come off, cause my elbow bone was too "big", so it got stuck there. It was super funny and i was getting desperate (service ended like, 9.40pm!). I asked Nick to help me get Viola's bracelet off my arm, and he managed to get it off. Hooray! :D

Then, talked crap with Ern, Ezra and Grace, talked about endorphines or something (though Ern much prefers "endolphins"...lol).

Took the shuttle bus to CCK. Slept on the bus, and Ian kor kor messed up my hair. Haha the messed-up-my-hair part was super random.

Hosanna, hosanna, hosanna in the highest.

Goodnight :)

p.s. go read Jon Lee's mulitply post entitled "The Paradox of Our Age", it's really meaningful :)

Rainbow

2009-02-28T10:51:00.004+08:00

Finally i'm back to posting! Been really busy lately, especially since i had tests the whole week this week.

Anyway, took this picture of a rainbow on wednesday, and i still have some nicer pictures of this particular rainbow in my handphone.

The rainbow reminded me of God's promise to Noah. Awesome.

See? How great is our God. :)

God Answered

2009-02-16T21:19:00.005+08:00

God answered one of my prayers. Praise the Lord! God is awesome. I don't really want to type out what prayer was answered here, because this the world wide web, so yeah. :)

I am still praying, because i believe prayer works. Well, kor kor Ian told me to pray too. :)

14 Febuary: It's V-Day

V-Day stands for Valentine's Day. Yeap, saturday was Valentine's Day. Woohoo!

Anyway, arrived in church at 3.30pm, jammed with Ethel on the guitar. Jammed until like 4.30pm, WG time! And i have extremely good news! Nick went for WG! :D i think you can sort of guess what i prayed for...mm never mind, just ignore that.

We had WG worship. Then, the guys and the girls had to spilt up into our own disccusion groups (as in, the guys one group, the girls one group, noooo...) because we discussed about love and BGR and stuff.

After WG, went to Vista Point to eat dinner. Ate with Joyce Hoe, Viola, Vanessa and Nick. Then went back to church. I felt a bit bothered and worried inside.

Service started at 7pm+. Andy preached. It was so funny, especially the way he pronounced "hong baos". I was laughing very hard, so hard that my stomach hurt. And we were also imitating Andy's awesomely cool American accent. Haha :D hong baossss *in an American accent* It was so cool!

Anyway, what i took home from saturday's sermon: Give God only the best, don't give God your "left-overs", because God deserves nothing but the best! And give to others, show love for others. :)

Ok it's late. Gotta go now. Bye :)

I think i know what to do.

I just need courage.

(Pray pray pray.)

Unfathomable Awesomeness

2009-02-08T19:28:00.003+08:00

Hi :) Well, i don't feel so good. No, i'm not unwell, i'm just...oh i don't know...upset, confused, worried...oh well. Saturdays are still wonderful, and God is still and always awesome. :)

7 February: Everlasting God

One thing i know that i have found

Through all the troubles that surround

You are the Rock that never fails, You never fail

Went to BPJ for worship rehearsals. Kim and i were BVs for the day, with Jerrold as our worship leader. Kim is a funny girl! :) She makes me laugh VERY easily...sort of reminds me of Jerome Lau (because Jerome knows how to cheer me up and make me laugh hysterically) or Ern (because of the funny sarcasm).

Anyway, before rehearsal, Jerrold was talking about how unfathomable God's awesomeness is. I mean, God exitsts by Himself. No one created Him, He has no beginning and no end. He holds the world in the palm of His hand...that's how BIG and AWESOME our God is! Even the words "big" and "awesome" isn't enough to describe God's awesomely awesome unfathomble awesomeness!

Ok back to the point. We rehearsed an then we went back to woodlands. We ate dinner (i was laughing throughout dinner, by the way, because Kim made me laugh, and Jerrold kept saying that i was very "matter-of-fact" :D), did soundcheck, and service started at around 7pm. I didn't get a chance to chat with Viola or Nick or most of the WG people...sigh so sad. Never mind, there's gonna be WG next saturday...yay :)

Well, i love worship, and i like the song Everlasting God (the slower one, but the fast one's nice too). And the sermon was one of the most relevant sermons i've ever heard. It was about discontentment and about us wanting more when God has already provided us with EVERYTHING that we need.

I was reminded of the mission trip i went for last december, went to Udon Thani. The children there aren't rich, but they are still happy and contented and they don't complain. We even visited an orphanage...the children have no parents! But they're all so cute and happy. So...we shouldn't complain!

After service, took the shuttle bus home. Sat with kor kor Ian. I didn't feel so happy, i was troubled. Even when Wei Hui tried to tickle me, i didn't feel like screaming or laughing. Got off the bus at Choa Chu Kang, cried on Ethel's shoulder. Jerome, Ezra, kor kor, my sis all crowded around. They asked what was bothering me, but i didn't tell...

I felt very grateful, because i have friends and family who care.

:)...

I Gotta Forgive

2009-02-01T21:03:00.005+08:00

TGIS. :D (Thank God It's Saturday/Sunday)

31 January: Think Good, Do Good, Experience God...

So how does someone "do good"? What should i do? I still don't know what to do...

Hooray for saturday! (oh it actually rhymes!)

Arrived in church at around 3.40pm (wearing what i'd call the "Chinese New Year special"...lol). Chatted with Carissa, Gifford and a few others. Then, i went to grab the guitar from behind the stage in the chapel and jammed by myself.

WG started at 4.30pm. We played the powepoint game. It was super fun! And funny! Heh heh. Then after that we discussed about who follow and in life and all that. Yeap. :)

After that, went to have dinner at Vista Point. Ate with Viola, Nick, Gideon, Timothy and a sec one girl whom i have totally forgotten her name (oops). After that went back to church.

Service started at 7pm+. I didn't want to go into the chapel. I felt extremely upset. The ushers sort of realised that i was standing outside and asked me to go in. I didn't move. Jerome and Gifford, seeing that i was upset, came and asked me what was bothering me. I didn't breathe a word.

They kept asking, especially Jerome, who made me laugh a bit, a few times. I still didn't wanna tell them. So, in the end they just prayed for me. Thanks Gifford and Jerome. :)

So after that, i went into the chapel. Sat through the sermon which was preached by Laura. The sermon was really convicting, and somehow, was related to how i felt at that time. It was about forgiving others, thinking and doing good, experiencing God. And worship was absolutely awesome.

It's coming, it's coming. I know it's coming.

I'm finding it hard.

1 February: A Different Experience

Went to attend Joyce's (sec 4) uncle's wake today. Joyce kinda informed me last minute (like, she informed me just this morning) that her uncle had left...

Anyway, my sis, Viola and i went to attend Joyce's uncle's wake. There weren't many people there, just some of Joyce's relatives, both Christian and non-Christian. I just felt really sad, firstly because my hamster, Peanut, just passed away this morning, and secondly, because Joyce's unlce had left too. Sigh...well, i will be praying for Joyce and her family members.

After that went back to church, then had lunch with DG members. Yeap.

Ok that's all. Oh no, school tomorrow, it's late.

Goodnight :)

p.s. this photo is in memory of our dear hamster, Peanut, who left us on this fateful day...rest in peace, Peanut.

CNY 2009

2009-01-30T22:06:00.002+08:00

Too lazy to type or post pictures here. To anyone who's interested, please go to this link:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13941&l=0f765&id=1379983326

Thank you and God bless! :)

Distraught

2009-01-27T14:12:00.002+08:00

Unhappy CNY...

I feel so disappointed...but i'm glad you told me.

... ...

You said it won't recover, but i believe and i know it will. God is bigger than ANY of our problems, you just have to believe in that. I know it isn't easy, but i know you can.

I try so hard to make it right, but i don't know if it will work out.
My emotions are mixed up. I feel so disappointed,
but yet, i feel so compelled to help you break free.
What am i to you?

Think big. Start small. Build deep.

Restedness

2009-01-25T21:24:00.007+08:00

Hi there. Sigh i feel kinda down now. I don't want to share it here, but i'm so sick and tired of bottling up my problems and stuff. Maybe next saturday...

23 January: CNY celebrations in School...

Was awesome la ok! Well, i'm not the type of person who would scream "i love school!", but friday's Chinese New Year celebration was super good. TGIF! Thank God It's Friday! Lol.

Well, on that day, 16 elderly people from i-dunno-what organisation came to our school to celebrate CNY with us. Us Student Coucillors served food to the elderly people, and we also chatted with them and ushered them up to the auditorium and down. It was a real blessing to see the elderly folks smile and cheer after each performance. :)

Speaking of which, the performance was great. My form teacher, Miss Chua, sang and played piano. And she sang reallyyyy well! Mr Teo sang really well too...haha. Hooray for Miss Chua and Mr Teo! :D

TGIF!

24 January: I Called, You Answered

TGIS! Thank God It's Saturday!

Yesterday was like, the most awesome worship ever. I love the song Came To My Rescue. :D

Well, i don't really want to elaborate much on yesterday, mostly because i am tired and slightly distraught. But as you all know, i love saturdays. Worship and the sermon yesterday was absolutely awesome. Change is coming, i believe so. :) ~~_{p.s. Nick came :)}~~

Ok that's all. God bless and happy CNY! (or as my kor kor would put it, Happy Tamil New Year! lol :D)

I called, and I know You will answer me.

So Far...

2009-01-22T20:42:00.004+08:00

School has been...ok. Mostly tiring, cause i almost fell asleep during chemistry lesson yesterday.

And today, right after i finished my english test, i fell asleep, head lying on the table...slept for like 15 minutes or more...

Thank goodness the teacher wasn't in class, if not i wouldn't have been able to take that break. :)

Departure

2009-01-19T21:01:00.004+08:00

Hi there. :)

Updates for last friday and saturday. Whoo!

16 January: Clarice departs

On friday, left cca early, left around 5pm. Took an mrt to Changi Airport to send Clarice off to Sweden! Viola, Eunice, Ethel, Grace, Esther, Jerlene, Wei Hui, Ern, Ezra, Gifford and many others were there to send Clare off too. When Clare left to go into the departure hall, i just cried la! I was trying sooooo hard to hold back the tears, but alas, i couldn't. Ethel and the others were comforting me and all that.

Gah, no Clarice for 6 months! *sobs*

After sending Clare off, we went to eat at Popeye's, but i didn't eat, cause i ate before that already. Yeah so after that Grace and Ethel were debating with Ern on which route he should take home. Was laughing hysterically, but i still miss Clarice.

After that went home with Esther, Jerlene, Wei Hui, Viola and Ethel. Cam-whored in the mrt...lol. But then i got too tired and i fell asleep on Viola's shoulder...

God bless you, Clare! :) Will be praying for you.

17 January: United

Well, i don't feel much like typing today, i don't know why. So just things short...

In the morning, i was supposed to go to school for SC meeting, but because of the previous night (went to the airport), i overslept. So in the end, i didn't go to school...

In the afternoon, went to church. Had combined WG with the sec 1 and 2s. You can imagine how HUGE the group was. I don't want to elaborate on the games part.

After that, had dinner with Viola, Jerome, Ern, Ezra and Jian Hao...gosh i can't remember much already, my brain must've stopped working...argh. p.s. Nick wasn't in chuch again...

Anyway, after that went back to church, service started at 7pm. Ryan FINALLY came back to WEB. Praise the Lord! :D

Sermon was about like-mindedness and being united as a bosy of Christ. Yep. Kat preached. :)

After service, took the bus to woodlands mrt, then sat mrt home with Viola and Jerome. We talked about pets.

Ok time for a random picture.

Here's Carissa checking for the time because it was Time Day! Lol :D

Ok that's all. Gotta go. Goodnight :)

Manageable

2009-01-15T19:06:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone. :)

Well, i didn't post for quite some time, because i've been busy in school.

Anyway, school's been quite ok this week. I guess i've adjusted to sec 3 life (which is very tiring, by the way). Been receiving quite a lot of homework, particularly A-Math. To be honest, i don't like A-Math...so difficult. :( Oh, and my Chemistry teacher is like bullet train.

But so far, school's manageable. I see it as a chance to bring my classmates to church. :)

Ok that's all for now. Bye :)

p.s. i've been trying to write my own songs recently, but been failing miserably, so yeah...just so you'd know...lol.

It Felt Different, Somehow

2009-01-11T21:20:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone. :) School has been terribly and horribly draining. I am dreading school tomorrow. Oh drats. :(

This weekend has just come and gone, it flew by. I mean it. It literally FLEW by. It's like weekdays are sooooo slow and weekends are sooooo fast...sigh.

Well, anyways.

10 January: The Difference

Well, yesterday was kinda different. Firstly, Nick wasn't in church. Secondly, it was Clarice's last saturday in WEB. Oh well. :(

I left home in the morning, went to Viola's house to collect the ingredients for the brownies, then went to Ezra's house. We baked brownies for Clarice. Viola joined us later at about 1pm because she had school earlier on.

Yep, so anyway, we baked the brownies. They came out of the oven looking kinda flat. Ezra said that the brownies were an "epic failure". Lol...i guess we should've used self-raising flour, or we should've used more baking powder. But still, the brownies tasted really nice, so we packed them into a plastic container, and then we went to church.

Arrived in church at 4.30pm. Rushed to the WG room (peace and patience room). Passed to the sec 3 girls Clarice's card so that they could write in it. After that, the whole WG played two games. It was really fun, combined WG. :) p.s. I didn't know Jerome could do back flips!

Anyway, after WG, took pictures with Carissa and the rest. We were wearing hats cause yesterday was Hat Day. Tzung Ern wore a terrorist hat...he looked really cool in it. Heh heh.

After that, met Gideon outside the chapel. He had a fever. I hope he's ok now...poor thing. :(

Then at 6pm+, Viola, Ern, Nick Yuen, Jerome, Gabriel and i went to have dinner at Vista Point.

Service started at 7pm. It felt really different. I was suddenly able to worship freely. It was like something had gone and something else had replaced that...emptiness? I don't know, it's hard to explain, but it was awesome to just worship God like that, because i haven't been able to worship freely for a long time.

Sermon. Well to cut the long story short, there was one thing that struck me. Change is coming because Jesus is my KING. Yep. :)

Ok that's all. I won't post about today's happenings. No time. Gotta go pack my bag for school tomorrow. Oh no oh no oh no. School.

Bye :)

School.

2009-01-06T20:54:00.003+08:00

So far, i dislike being sec 3. Yesterday was a very looooonnng day. Today was an even loooooonnnnger day. And tomorrow will be a super looooooooonnng day. Sigh.

Gah! Well, to be frank, school is NOT boring. The lessons are boring, especially when the teacher drones on for half an hour and you don't even understand a word he or she said.

Well, it's TUESDAY. Oh man. Still got three more days to saturday. Oh i just can't wait for saturday to come. Oh man, THREE days. Three looooonnng days.

Oh man oh man oh man. :(

I can't wait for saturday to come.

My Birthday Which Was Two Days Ago

2009-01-06T20:29:00.006+08:00

Today is 6 January...yep. I really thank God for all those people who wished me a happy birthday (and to those who didn't wish me, i also thank God for you :D).

Anyway, here are my birthday pictures. :)

Present from Viola :)
Present from my mum! :DPresent from one of the DG members, Aunty Jascillia."Ang bao" from my grandma, snowglobe from my good friend, WEN XUEN...haha.Chocolate cake!

That's all. Bye :)

I'm 15 :D

2009-01-04T20:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...lol. :D

Yeah...so today's 4 January, i'm officially 15 years old. Honestly, i still feel like i'm 14...maybe it'll take me a while to adjust? Haha.

Anyway, to all those people who wished me and gave me presents (including my mum! :D), THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! I really really appreciate it. :)

I will upload pictures about my birthday very soon. :)

3 January: My Birthday Eve

Yesterday was awesome! Viola gave me a card and a keychain. :)

Anyway, went to church, played guitar with Ethel and Viola. Then after that WG started. Played a game, worshipped God, and then Clarice told us that she was stepping down as a SPIDER, and that on 16 January, she'll be going to Sweden for 6 months to study. Felt really sad when she told us. Matt came in and we all prayed for Clarice. After that we took pictures with Clarice and celebrated my birthday eve by singing "happy birthday". :)

After WG, met Nick outside the Chapel. Then, went to Vista Point to have dinner with him and Viola. :)

After that, we went back to church. We had a special baptism service. It was quite crowded at the first floor, so Viola and i stood at the second floor to see the baptism service.

Baptism service ended. We went upstairs to the chapel. Sermon was really good. Touched many youths that night, i believe. I went around praying for my WG friends. Prayed for Charmaine and Mag too. (by the way, mag gave me some homemade chocolates, they were delicious!)

After service, went home. :)

Ok that's all. Bye :)

p.s. Jubilees will miss you, Clarice!

A New Year

2009-01-01T10:00:00.002+08:00

Well nothing much to update, except that on tuesday and wednesday, went to Sentosa...went cycling. :) Maybe i'll post the pictures next time...MAYBE.

Yep...so it's the new year, it's 2009. Somehow, i still feel as if it's 2008. Hmm. Takes me awhile to adjust.

Ok that's all. Bye :)

An Awesome God

2008-12-29T15:25:00.008+08:00

Woohoo! It's 29 December already! End of the year is like coming very soon (this thursday, in fact).

Well, God has been really faithful and good throughout the whole of year 2008. So many things has happened, but God still remains faithful, and He never fails to be there. What an awesome God we have. :)

Anyway, weekend updates!

27 December: The Last Saturday of 2008...

Has it's ups and downs.

In the morning at 11am, went to Bugis with Viola. I bought a white shirt (which looks quite Victorian, according to Eunice Lim and my dad) and Viola bought three pairs of earrings. :)

And then after that we walked around, did some window-shopping, got lost twice, saw a shop which was named after Viola (i'm serious ok!) AND not forgetting the awesome guitar shop...woohoo! I saw A LOT of guitars, from electric guitars to acoustics to bass guitars and Fenders. There was also an acoustic bass and 12-string guitar! It was so awesome! Lol. :D

Pictures!

After that, Viola and i left for church at 1.30pm because i was on duty that day. We ate lunch at Vista Point and then we went to church.

Had worship rehearsals, and then went for WG. We played Taboo...rather interesting game. :)

After WG, went to have dinner. Nick came along too. :)

Then service started. Sermon was about not giving up and pursuing God's heart. The message was mostly for the senior WEBs who are moving on to RAYS next year. God bless the seniors. :)

After service, i was upset and i felt really bad. Was upset on the way home too. Got home, didn't sleep well.

28 December: The Last Sunday of 2008...

Was great. :) I shan't elaborate much.

Morning went to church, played guitar for JD (yay!) but actually i felt unsettled and unrested.

After JD worship, went to the yellow benches, and then i decided to go to woodlands to settle it (and to apologise). I didn't expect a good ending, but it turned out well, in fact, it turned out to be better than i had intially expected. I thought i'd never be forgiven for what i did. I guess God has His own ways and He knows what's best.

After that i went back to BPJ. I felt rested and extremely happy.

I really thank God. :)

Bye and to whoever who's reading, God bless you for 2009! :)

p.s. THIS SUNDAY (4th January) IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! :D

My Christmas 2008

2008-12-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

It was awesome! To view the pictures, go to my facebook...too lazy to post here...lol.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=11178&l=669dc&id=1379983326

Bye :)

Merry Post-Christmas! :)

2008-12-26T14:44:00.005+08:00

Hey. Sorry i couldn't wish you all Merry Christmas yesterday. I was kinda out the whole day.

Anyway, yesterday (which was Christmas, duh!) was awesome! In the afternoon, my cousins and some-relatives-whom-i-never-knew-existed came to my house to have Christmas lunch. There was A LOT of food. We exchange presents and took pictures.

One of my cousins (whom i have never met before) was really cute. His name is Ah Hong, he's 3 years old. He was really shy at first, but after my sis, Keith, Kevin and i took him to the playground to play, he opened up to us. :) Had a lot of fun. :)

After that, at 5pm, we had Christmas gathering and dinner with the mission trip people. We (the youths) had prepared a special dance item for the parents. The parents were surprised(?) and they liked our performance. :) After that had dinner, a lot of food again. Oh, and did i mention chocolates? There were a lot of them! Uncle Gerry kept offering me some chocolates because he knew that i absolutely love chocolates...lol. The chocolates were very very delicious! :D

Ok that's all for now. Will be going to Pasir Ris tonight, going to visit my previous church members/CG. Woohoo! Can't wait. :)

Bye :)

p.s. yesterday's pictures will be posted soon...God bless you all and Merry post-Christmas!

Christ in Christmas

2008-12-22T18:59:00.006+08:00

Hello. Just to sum up what happened today, yesterday and saturday. :)

20 December, saturday: FACES, Uniquely His

FACES was dead awesome!

I loved the concert and the dance. Pleroma was awesome! I am now addicted to the song Sweet Home Alabama...lol. Also, Jerrold, Pris and Duane were really good, and Ming Xuan and kor kor Ian were really good at playing drums. :D

Dinner was awesome too. Byron came for FACES! Heh it was awesome. God is really good. He gave us good weather! Also, there were quite a number of newcomers and one salvation! God is good. :)

I also made cookies for Viola, Ian and the leaders and some other people and Nick :). Yay!

Like i said, FACES was dead awesome!

Whoa-oh-oh, God be the solution!

21 December, sunday: Christ in Christmas

Yesterday was super tiring. Woke up at 7am, went to church for JD worship rehearsal. Aunty Christine said that Christmas is to celebrate Jesus, but the world today takes away Christ in Christmas. So, as Christians, we should celebrate Jesus Christ, not just on Christmas but everyday of our lives! Cool, eh? :)

After JD worship, i was feeling quite down. I went to the yellow benches, bumped into Joyce Hoe and Esther. Chatted with them, talked about Twilight. Inside, i was still feeling quite down...

Then after that, went for brunch with some cell group aka mission trip people. I was feeling a bit better by then.

At night, i went to holland v to support the Kairos dancers. I got lost while trying to go there! I called Viola three times, and i also called Clarice and Jon Quek.In the end, by the grace of God, i managed to reach the location in one piece...lol. Yep, and the dance was still as awesome as ever. :)

After the dancers danced, chatted with Viola, Tzung Ern and Nick Yuen. Went home with Viola at around 9pm+. We kept talking about the eve of the eve of Chirstmas Eve and the eve of my birthday etc. Haha it really funny.

Reached home at 10pm+. I had a great time. :)

22 Decemeber, monday: Eve of the eve of Christmas Eve

Yep, today is the eve of the eve of Christmas Eve! Haha! Anyway, my sis and i went to Kinokuniya book store at Orchard to buy books. I bought a recipe book for cakes and pastries! Yay! :D

Also, on one of the buildings, i saw them put this Bible verse: "...with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:26." When i saw it, i was super happy! The church is actually involved in this year's Christmas! Woohoo! :D

Ok that's all for now. Bye :)

I can't wait for...

2008-12-19T19:22:00.003+08:00

FACES. Woohoo! :D

Bolt

2008-12-18T15:17:00.003+08:00

I love Bolt!

Went to watch Bolt yesterday. It was very nice, quite touching also. I almost cried at the last part of the movie...lol. Yeah, Bolt is a nice movie. And the hamster, Rhino (or however you wanna spell it) is super CUTE. :D

I recommend you guys to go watch this movie! Woohoo!

Bye. :)

Swimming, again :)

2008-12-16T20:49:00.002+08:00

Yep, went swimming at bukit batok civic centre again. I didn't swim (again) because i have a cold (i'm still sniffling, it's so irritating!).

Anyway, it was quite fun. I was the only girl who went (sad la...lol). I took pictures and videos of the boys swimming and all that. One of the videos is really gross, but Tzung Ern and Nick Yuen wanted me to take the video anyway...go see the video for yourself if you want. :)

Also, the boys kept trying to splash water at me. Tzung Ern even threw the wet float at me...lol. It was actually quite funny. :)

Yeah i guess that's all. Sigh...Nick Yuen and Jian Hao cycled to bukit batok today...i wanna go cycling! I haven't cycled for quite long...:(

By the way, i'm too lazy to post the videos and pictures here. It'd take too long, anyway. So...

To see the pictures, go to this link: http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=10463&l=7c35a&id=1379983326

And to see the videos, go to these two links: http://www.new.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1061543423720&saved#/video/video.php?v=1061543423720 // http://www.new.facebook.com/video/?id=1379983326#/video/video.php?v=1061544703752

Ok that's all. Bye :)

Testimonies

2008-12-15T20:05:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for Christmas! I can't wait for this saturday's Christmas event, FACES! :D

13 December: The Most Awesome Testimonies I've Ever Heard

Saturday was great! There was no WG, but then we had something called woodlands blitz. We had to go around the woodlands neighbourhood and give out invitation cards on our Christmas event, inviting them to church and stuff. It was quite scary when we had to knock on people's doors. Some of them, when they heard the word "church", immediately said no. But thank God, some of them did seem interested. I hope they'll come for the event! *prays and hopes*

After that, went to eat dinner with Viola, my sis and her friends (Nick wasn't in church, he was overseas). Then went back to church for service.

Service was the super awesome! I loved the worship! Solution, Glory and Hosanna...awesome! :D The boys who went for boys' breakthrough also shared their testimonies. Jerome, Aaron and my kor kor shared their testimonies. It was the most awesome testimonies i've ever heard. God is real. :) sigh i bet i won't have the guts to share my testimony like that, on stage.

At the end of sermon, we got to sing Solution again...woohoo! I love that song la. :)

Ok that's all. I don't want to post about yesterday. Nothing much.

Bye. :)

The Most Meaningful Time I've Had

2008-12-12T20:57:00.004+08:00

Hello! I'm back from mission trip. :D Went to Thailand, Udon Thani.

Summary of the trip:

It was awesome. We visited the church in Udon Thani, three primary schools, a secondary school, an orphanage, an old folks home and a reform centre.

I love the children there, especially the primary school children. They are soooo cute! I also made a lot new friends, both from the mission team and the thai people. :)

I also love seeing the children smile. Every time we danced for them or we performed our skit, they would laugh/smile. It really warmed my heart to see them smile. I love making balloon sculptures for them too. They're very very polite. You will never find such culture in Singapore.

I guess the children made the most impact on me for this mission trip. I was really touched to see the way they responded when we told them about Jesus using the evange-cube and when we made balloon sculptures for them. And they sort of treated us like "celebrities", as in, they would run up to us, wanting to take pictures with us and even asking us for our autographs (this ONLY applies to the youth, the children did NOT ask the adults for their autographs :P). They are really cute. I finally understand God's love for the Thai people and children. It's awesome.

Another thing, or rather, the person, who made the most impact on me was Uncle Chuck. Uncle Chuck is a missionary and was also our van driver. He drove us (the youth) around to the schools etc. I am really thankful to him and for him, because without him, we wouldn't be able to go anywhere. Also, yesterday, before we set off to Bangkok again, he said one thing which kinda struck me. He said this:

"There are only two types of people, missionaries and mission fields. If we believe in Jesus and put our trust in Him, we are missionaries. Those who don't are mission fields." ...

This week for me was not wasted. It was the most meaningful time i've had in a long time. If there is another trip to Udon Thani next year, you can bet that i'll be there. :)

God bless Thailand. Woohoo! :D

p.s. The pictures will be posted soon...there is just too many! Haha. :)

My Kor Kor's House :)

2008-12-02T21:19:00.005+08:00

I went to my kor kor's house today. Yeah, my kor kor is Ian! Heh heh.

Well, Ian made me guess where he lives, which block and all that. He pretended to forget where he lives...haha.

Anyway, his room is quite small, but it has a drum set (not the real thing, the rubber one or whatever-you-wanna-call-it) and an electric guitar. His electric guitar has strings which are quite old, but it's still nice. :) Oh! Ian taught me how to play the drums and now i know how to play it a little. Yay! Also, Ian's dog, Skye, is quite cute. Skye seemed really restless and bored...lol.

By the way, Ian also prank-called some people. Hahaha! :D And i like the Christmas tree in his house. :)

Ok gotta go. DJ time. Bye :)

God Of Ages

2008-12-01T21:04:00.005+08:00

I just felt that i had to put that as the title for this post. *points to the top*

God has really been faithful. You know, sometimes i just feel like a Failure (emphasis on the F)...failure as in "i have failed God" that kind of failure. I struggle (sin and fear) and it's stupid. I hate struggling. But God is faithful, and i'm really really thankful. :D

Yeah. So anyway, today is the first of december! Heh heh. Actually, i'm supposed to go to thailand for a mission trip this saturday, but due to the political situation there (airport closed and all), i won't be going to thailand. So i'll still be in church this saturday! :)

Ok enough. Time for the weekend updates.

29 November: Scared and Imperfect...

Well, i was supposed to go to school in the morning for drill practice but then i wasn't feeling well, so i didn't go.

Went to church in the afternoon at around 3.30pm+...AND i wore my newly-bought chocolate-coloured skirt! I don't usually wear skirts, so it was like my first time wearing a skirt in a long time. :) I like the skirt a lot.

Yeah, so, first, Ethel and Nat saw me and they were like "you look cute!" (or something like that, i can't really remember) and i just stared at them like "huh?". Haha, yeah. Then before WG, i went to the chapel, saw Nick there. He said i looked nicer. :)

Then, WG started at 4.30pm. Combined with the boys again. It's becoming a habit, but i like combining WG with the boys...it's fun. :) Jerome kept saying that i was dumb. I replied him "i know i'm dumb". HAHA. How retarded is that? Heh.

Then after that went to the foyer and chatted with Viola. Ate a chocolate cheese cake and an apple struddle. They were both sooo delicious! *squeals in delight*

And then after that, i went to have dinner with Clarice, Eunice, Gifford, Ern, Jerome and Jian Hao. Didn't eat with Nick and Viola because they were on duty that night. But it was fun eating dinner with a different crowd for once (yes, for ONCE, haha).

Service started at 7pm+. Worship was so awesome! Priscilla was finally leading worship again after a long time. And the songs were great. :) Sermon was preached by Edmund Wong (Matt's friend, whom i find has no remsemblance whatsoever to Matt). He preached about how we should shine for Jesus, and that in whatever we do, we shouldn't complain. During response time, i just couldn't bring myself to sing the song Till I See You. I felt so lousy. I felt like crying again.

After service, went home, didn't hype. Got home, couldn't sleep. I cried myself to sleep. Sigh...but i'm fine now, though. :)

Scared and imperfect, but saved by the grace of God.

30 November: It Got Worse

My stomach ache got worse. Sigh.

Anyway, nothing much happened on sunday, except that we had mission trip meeting again and we practiced the dance moves and all that. I didn't see Viola. BUT i got to see Nick. :D

Ok gotta go. Bye. :)

p.s. i got mild stomach flu, i'm still recovering. :)

Back From 5 Senses Camp

2008-11-28T09:00:00.003+08:00

Well, not me, but my sis. Yes, she's back from 5 Senses Camp and Operation Overnight (which means one whole night of games with NO SLEEP)!

Anyway, i wanted to ask my sis how she felt about Operation Overnight (judging from last night when i called Nick and he told me what was happening, i'd say Operation Overnight was a bit scary), but then she looked so zonked-out...AND her spectacles are broken, so i decided to let her sleep first. I'll ask her when she wakes up. :)

Yeah. But i bet she (and the camp com) had a lot fun, despite of how tired they are.

Well, God bless the campers and camp committee! They need their rest. :)

Ok gotta go now, i wanna eat breakfast. Sigh, i feel a bit unwell today. Oh well.

Bye. :)

5 Senses Dinner

2008-11-27T18:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was great. Went for the 5 Senses Camp dinner. Got to see Nick (yay! :D).

Anyway, i asked my sis how the camp was. She said that the Amazing Race was very tiring (of course it would be tiring). She also said that my brother (Ian, of course) is very caring (duh!).

After the dinner, went downstairs to the Grace Sanctuary. Matt talked about the camp and about WEB (where eternity begins). He also showed us photos on the Amazing Race. It was so funny! Matt also led us into singing to song With Christ In The Vessel. When he omitted some of the words, Jerome (Chew) would just sing those omitted words on purpose! Hahaha! It was hilarious. :D

Ok that's all. The camp committee and campers are proceeding with Operation Overnight now. Sigh...i should have joined camp com! GAH!

Bye and God bless the camp com and campers! :)

p.s. Sigh. I realise that there's just no point in me typing all this. I mean, no one reads it anyway! *sobs*

p.p.s. I got a private blog. Haha ok random. :P

24 Nov...Toy Guns, Sleuths and 5 Senses

2008-11-24T15:52:00.003+08:00

Hi there. :)

22 November: Spy Day!

Left home at 2pm. I arrived at woodlands, met Nick there. Nick and i hung out for a while. :) Then after that went to church for worship rehearsal.

I arrived in church at 3pm+. I thought rehearsal was at 3pm. Turns out, it started at 1.30pm as stated in the email. I didn't check my email the day before, so i didn't know about the time change. :( But rehearsal still went on with Kelvin as the worship leader. p.s. you did a great job worship leading, Kelvin! :D

After that, went for WG. Combined with the sec 2 boys again. It was great, i love WG time. I left WG early because i had to go for dinner and then to Channel Heaven. Had dinner with Faith and Sophia, but in the end, i swap seats and had dinner with Nick and Gideon instead.

After that, went back to church. I took a picture with Carissa and Eunice Tan in order to remember that day...SPY DAY! I liked Eunice's jacket, she looked like a sleuth when she wore it. And i liked Carissa's toy gun. :D

Woohoo! :D (picture from Eunice's facebook)During Channel Heaven: i learnt something new. Jesus died on the cross not just for our sins or because He wanted to obey His Father, but also because He wanted to GLORIFY His Father. I find that truly amazing.

Service. Sermon was about how we should be humble and like-minded, to put others' interests first. Anthony preached that night. It was interesting, especially when he spoke about how he and his teammates survived "Hell Week". :)

After service, had debrief, chatted with Nick and Viola for a while. Then, took the shuttle bus to woodlands MRT along with Viola (we were still quite interested in Carissa's toy gun) and went home. :)

23 November: Yay!

Nick went to BPJ! :D Met at around 9am+. We sat at the brown benches and talked and stuff. :) Oh, Nick allowed me to see the camp com file which contains all the "evil plans" on how to torture the people who are going for the 5 senses camp...haha! Nick told me what's gonna happen at the camp. Thank God i'm not going. :)

I also got to play guitar. I like Rachael's guitar! Such nice acoustic strings...:) And i want my big brother Ian to teach me how to play drums! Haha.

Ok that's all. Bye :)

22 Nov...Old things in Viola's room...

2008-11-22T11:00:00.005+08:00

It was hilarious. Viola and i were laughing our heads off.

Went to Viola's house yesterday. Helped to pack her room. It was quite fun. We found a lot of old stuff hidden in Viola's room. I bet she hasn't packed her room for years...lol. :D

Anyway, we found Viola's old diary, written when she was only primary 3. I read it and i laughed. So many grammatical and spelling errors! Haha! Also, we found many old drawings. They were drawn by Viola when she was only primary 1 and K2! I even found a drawing in which the date states "30.5.97". Can you imagine? 1997 you know! Lol.

Oh, i also saw the neighbourhood cat, Garfield. Viola and i brought him upstairs, but then in the end, we had some trouble bringing him down again. Garfield is a big fat stubborn cat. Haha. :)

Pictures. :)

Drawing of a banana. Look at the date...1997! That was like, when Viola was 3 years old?! *gasps*Primary 1 maths, printed on ORANGE COLOURED paper somemore. HAHA.

Viola's drawing of herself when she was primary 1 (or 3, can't remember). Garfield :)

Ok that's all. Going to church later. Bye :)

19 Nov...Bowling and Swimming

2008-11-19T08:51:00.008+08:00

Hello! I had so much fun yesterday. Some of us sec 2 people went bowling and swimming yesterday at Bukit Batok Civic Service Centre. Had a lot of fun. I love bowling! Haha. :D

After bowling, the guys went swimming and us girls (Eunice, Viola and i) went around taking pictures. So much fun. Actually the guys persuaded me to swim, but in the end i didn't. :)

Pictures!

At the bowling place...

I love this picture :D
Gifford, Jerome, Tzung Ern

Look at the score! I only got 25 points. And now, look at Gifford's...4 strikes in a row! How on earth did he get 4 strikes in a row? *jaw drops*Tzung Ern's score = 111!!! :OThis is the bowling alley. I still remember Tzung Ern slipped and fell when he stepped on the bowling alley (that's how slippery the bowling alley is). We all laughed when he slipped...so funny la. :D
At the swimming pool...
JeromeThank you God. :)

17 Nov...I have officially run out of ideas of what title i should put for this entry

2008-11-17T14:38:00.006+08:00

Yes, i don't know what title i should put for this post. Anyway, i just came back from City Hall about an hour ago (it's now approx. 3.40pm). Ate donuts with Nick...haha. :D

i'm really tired...tired, but happy. :)

15 November: One Life

First of all, i would like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Joyce Hoe! :D

In the morning, went to school for drill practice. Drill practice ended at 12. Was extremely tired after that.

Then, went home, bathed, had lunch, did my DJ and went to church at about 3pm. Brought my guitar along. :) I played guitar for awhile, then, i fell asleep inside the WG room on the floor. Yes, that was how tired i was. :)

WG started at 4.30pm. The boys joined us again...yay! It was fun. We played pass the parcel. Oh and Clarice is back from Hong Kong! She said she went to disneyland. Not fair, i haven't been there yet! Haha. :D

After WG, went to Vista to have dinner with Nick and Viola. Talked about a lot of stuff.

Then we went back to church. Service started at 7pm+. The sermon was about us having only one life and that we shouldn't waste our lives by investing in earthly things, but we should store up our treasures in heaven (i.e. we should live our lives for God). God really spoke to me that night. During response time, i cried and i prayed.

Mostly, i cried and i prayed for someone.

16 November: I watched Kung Fu Panda!

Went to church at 9am. I was bored, very bored. Chatted with Viola about anything we could think of. After first service (which was around 10.45am), i had to go home. But then i wanted to stay because Nick would be coming at 12 noon. Too bad i couldn't stay. Sigh.

Reached home at 11.15am. Rented the movie Kung Fu Panda. It's really nice. :)

Ok gotta go. See ya. :)

14 Nov...Movie Days :)

2008-11-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

Yesterday (13 november): Went to Lot 1 to watch Madagascar 2 with my sis, Qin Yi and Byron. I loved the movie, it was so funny! :D

Today: Went to watch Quantum Of Solace with Nick. :) I didn't quite understand the show...haha. Anyway, after the movie, we walked around and then went to BPP. And Nick bullied me! :( ...lol.

But still, i thank God for the good times :)

9 Nov...Hyper, VERY Hyper

2008-11-09T18:17:00.003+08:00

Hello humans. :) ... Lol did i just type that? Haha!

8 November: YESTERDAY - Hyper Saturday

Yesterday was so fun! Hahaha! WG was great. Combined with the sec 2 boys again. It was funny. I love WG. Oh, erm...nah i have decided that i won't 'suan' Viola. *evil laughter*

After WG, went to Vista to have dinner with Nick and Viola. And Joyce (not my sis) finally came to WEB after a long time! Yay praise God!

(ok now to sidetrack a little...for your info, the reason why i don't eat on saturday nights is because i am NOT hungry! I eat when i'm hungry and i don't eat when i'm not hungry! Ok random lol)

After dinner, went back to church. Then service started. Service was rather interesting and it was meaningful. It is kinda hard to explain, but it was about starting well. One thing that really meant a lot was that Jesus displayed His love through His death. I mean, who else would do that? God is amazing. :)

After service, waited for the shuttle bus. Chatted with Nick, Viola, Gideon and Joyce (again, not my sis, another Joyce). Viola and i started to hype (aka became crazy in a good way). It was so funny. I was also kinda surprised cause i have never seen Viola hype before. Anyway, the two of us kept laughing for random reasons. Hahaha! In the mrt also, i was suan-ing Viola and she kept laughing and Wei Hui tickled me. Lol!

Gideon said that Viola's case was minor and that at home when she hypes, she's a lot more hyper. And as for me, he said that i am a hopeless case. Haha. :D

Viola and i were totally insane. :D

9 November: TODAY - Not-So-Hyper Sunday

Today was kinda tiring but fun. I couldn't really sing very loudly during JD worship...sigh. Anyway, after JD worship, went to the brown benches (behind yellow benches or somewhere there) with Viola. Viola was still hyping a little. And i suan-ed her a little too. Haha.

After that went to BPP with family to have brunch. Then went back to church at 1pm+ for mission trip meeting.

Ok gotta go now. Bye :)

p.s. I want to watch Madagascar 2!

7 Nov...Class Chalet and Viola's house

2008-11-07T09:05:00.007+08:00

Hello! Sorry i didn't post about the class chalet earlier...been a little bit busy lately.

Well, the class chalet was great. It was on monday. Arrived at Coasta Sands and went cycling. I crashed like twice. Ouch. But it was kinda fun. Oh, and Sylvester (classmate) brought his electric guitar, so i played it. :D

Sigh...i'm gonna miss class24. (p.s. sorry if some of the pictures aren't very clear)

Cai Ling and Shi Ling respectively, with Wen Xuen being extra at the background (haha just kidding :P)Regina, Cai Ling, Shi Ling, Liang ShengWen Xuen playing the C chord on the electric guitar with a fork in his mouth...lol! :DClass 2/4.......

Anyway, yesterday, went to Viola's house (finally!). Went there with my sis. Had a lot of fun making brownies. The brownies tasted wonderful! Also had a lot of fun playing Nintendo Wii...haha. :D

Part of Viola's room :)Wahaha CHOCOLATE!!! :D

By the way, Gideon's room was VERY messy. But i won't post the picture. :)

Bye :)

3 Nov...Live With An Attitude

2008-11-03T10:50:00.003+08:00

Hi long time no post! Haha! November already eh? :)

Today is monday...yeah. My friend messaged me just now, saying that i got into triple science. Whoa. TRIPLE SCIENCE leh...haha. Praise the LORD. :D

(p.s. actually, i wanted to go to school to check the results myself, but then my friend told me the results, so in the end, lazy me decided not to go to school...lol.)

Anyway, later in the afternoon, i'll be going to Pasir Ris for class chalet. Yay! But i'm NOT staying overnight. :)

Ok time for the weekend updates. :)

1 November: Randomness...again :D

Just to sum up what happened on saturday, i shall type in point form in chronological order :)

- In the morning, went to school to have drill practice (again). Sigh i seriously feel like quitting drill com. :/

- In the afternoon, around 2pm, i went to Causeway Point. On the way there, in the mrt, i bumped into Eunice (Tan), Jingyi, Aaron, Asaph, Jerome (Chew). Chatted with Eunice and Jingyi. They were so funny, especially Eunice. :D

- I arrived at Causeway at around 2.15pm+. Met Nick there. We walked around for a while. Then we went to watch HSM 3. It was my second time watching it. I was very, very happy, not because i got to watch HSM 3 again, but because i watched it with him :)

- After that went to church for WG. Bumped into Viola on the way. WG time was so funny. Combined WG with the boys again. Jerome (Lau) was very random, he kept laughing. Oh, and Ezra can bake! His cakes are sooo nice! Yum, chocolate...:D

- Then, dinner with Nick, Viola and Sophia.

- Service. The sermon was good. Philippians 2:5 "Your attitude should be the same as that of Jesus Christ".

- Service ended at 9.15pm+. Went home. Oh, and Ryan FINALLY went to WEB after a long time. Haha. :) Anyway, on the mrt, chatted with Ethel, Jerome (Lau) and Ezra. Ethel gave me a mint sweet. I suddenly commented "it tastes like Colgate!"...lol! :D

2 November: Hmm

Nothing much...except that Ethel came to BPJ. :) And Matt came to JD and talked about the 5 Senses Camp.

Ok that's all. I will post about my class chalet soon. Bye :)

28 October...Why.

2008-10-28T16:30:00.004+08:00

Argh. I can't stand it anymore.

Why is it that SOME people take everything they have for granted?

Why is it that, sometimes, i STILL have feelings of inadequacy?

Why is it that SOME people take God for granted; when good things happen to them, they don't give thanks, and when bad things happen to them, they don't look to God OR they blame Him?

Why are we human beings sooooo self-centred? Why do SOME people only care about THEMSELVES?

Stupid sin. Stupid devil. Stupid human weakness.

Argh. I want it to all go away. Stupid sin.

Argh.

p.s. sorry for the sudden angry post...i just had to let it out.

28 October...Woohoo!

2008-10-28T12:37:00.002+08:00

I love my new phone! The sound system is awesome! :D

Anyway, i just came back from school a while ago. I went to school to submit my subject combination form. And yes, i put triple science as my first choice (i don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing).

Oh well. See ya. :)

27 October...Another Awesome Weekend

2008-10-27T14:17:00.004+08:00

Hi there. This is the first week of the school holidays and today is Deepavali. Ok that was random. But in any case, God is great. :)

So, here are the updates for the recent weekend. :)

25 October: Don't Even Ask

Was on my way to church at 3pm+. Met Nick at the woodlands bus interchange, so we went to church together. :)

When we arrived in church, Nick and i went into the chapel. Nick set up the sound system thingy and i just watched. Apparently, the signal cable had some problems again.

Then, i went out of the chapel. I saw Ethel, Tzung Ern, Jerome (Lau) and Gifford setting up the Team WEB booth. I offered to help them. It was a lot fun. :D Eunice came to help us too.

Anyway, Ethel took Jerome's shoes and put them in the girls' toilet. It was kinda funny, but then poor Jerome. I wanted to help retrieve Jerome's shoes, but then they were all like "don't help him", or something like that. Even Nick told me not to retrieve the shoes! Hahaha! But in the end, i still did anyway. :)

After all that madness, we went for WG. Clarice was absent, so we combined WG with the boys. WG time was so embarassing for me, thanks to Brandon. And don't even think about asking me (or anyone) what happened.

Blah blah blah...i shall skip dinner.

After dinner was service. It was about dollars and sense. In all that we do, we should remember God...yeah. And i learnt something new; holy communion is to remember the promise we made to God. Oh and, erm, after service, i passed kor kor Ian his belated birthday present. :)

(Remember your Creator...)

Sigh...it was great. I really thank God for those few minutes._<3

26 October: Laugh Out Loud

I shall skip to after JD worship.

Well, my sis did not go for JD service and my parents attended second service.

Anyway, it was quite boring at first before the second service. Viola was reading her Meg Cabot book (again) and i was playing my guitar. Then after that my sis came and we went downstairs to the yellow benches. Then went to Greenridge to buy food to eat.

When we came back, we went to the sunbeam room and i saw my big brother playing drums for the worship session. Then after that went to yellow benches again and i chatted with my big brother.

And then there was Ming Yao, a toddler, Aunty Kian Siew's son. He sort of played with kor kor Ian's drumsticks. When kor kor Ian wanted them back, Ming Yao refused to return them. He ended up tickling kor kor Ian and even tried to bite his butt. It was so funny. Sigh, poor kor kor Ian. :)

Ok gotta go. Bye :)

p.s. i got a new phone! YAY!

24 October...High School Musical 3...

2008-10-24T17:05:00.003+08:00

Is soooo nice! I like the songs. :)

Anyway, if it wasn't for an extra ticket, i wouldn't be able to watch HSM 3. Thank God for the extra ticket! So, my sis, her friends and i went to Lot One just now to watch HSM 3. :) The cinema was super crowded...all packed with my juniors (their my juniors because they're from Concord Primary aka my primary school!!!).

Sigh...somehow, while i was sitting in the cinema, it felt kinda nostalgic...*thinks about the June holidays a few months back* Oh well...you can't go back in time even if you wanted to, right?

Bye :)

24 October...fretting over...

2008-10-24T11:00:00.002+08:00

...which subject combination to choose. Anyone have any suggestions? I really don't know. :/

Anyway, my holidays have just begun! Woohoo! Praise God! But holidays are going to be very busy because of the number of drill practices i have (not to mention the number of hours...). And in december, i'll be going to Thailand for a mission trip.

Oh, and i just found out that this computer i am currently using has a media library! Haha i'm so dumb at times. :P

Ok gotta go. Bye :)

p.s. i want to watch HSM 3!!!

20 Oct...Jubilee

2008-10-20T12:30:00.003+08:00

The recent weekend, which was yesterday. :)

17 October: GB Outing

Mhmm, went to Sentosa for our GB outing! It was super fun. God is so good, He blessed us with wonderful weather; not too sunny and it didn't rain. Yay praise God! Anyway, the games were very fun and it involves us getting wet. Haha. And at the end of the day, i was very exhausted, happy and thankful. :)

18 October: The Dollars and Cents Forum AND my laughing day

Yeah saturday was my laughing day! You wouldn't believe how much i laughed during WG. It was so funny. I just kept laughing and made random comments...lol. :D

Anyway, sec 2 girls WG have a NEW NAME! We are now called Jubilee! Yay! I was thinking maybe we could make a t-shirt or something to show that we're from Jubilee. Any suggestions, sec 2 girls? :)

After WG, went to Vista to have dinner with Nick and Viola. Then after that we went back to church for service.

During service, there was the dollars and cents forum. It was quite interesting. I still remember one of the panel people saying "begin with the end in mind". The forum was really helpful :)

19 October: A special day for...

Kor kor Ian! Happy birthday! :D

I can't wait for the holidays to start. Woohoo! Bye :)

15 Oct...End-year Results

2008-10-15T19:33:00.002+08:00

I got back my end-year results already!

English: 73
Math: 85
Science: 79
Chinese: 63
History: 67
Geography: 71
Literature: 67

Praise God for all my results! :D

13 Oct...there must be more than this

2008-10-13T18:51:00.005+08:00

Hi. Well this will be another weekend post. But before i begin, just to sum up today's happenings...

So...today is monday. School today was boring. No lessons (that's good), but then the teachers showed us a movie about basketball AGAIN. And for your info, they showed us a basketball movie last year too. It's like they're showing us some propaganda film to brainwash us so that we will fall in love with basketball. HAHA.

Oh and they also showed us Ratatouille (which was quite funny and cute, and is much better than basketball propaganda movies).

Ok i shall start the weekend updates now :)

11 October: A Certain Kind

I arrived in church at 3.30pm with my guitar. I lent my guitar to Ethel because she was playing for WG worship. So she and Ariel practiced while Eunice (Lim) and i sat there and listened. Meanwhile, the sec ones were playing a game called sardines, which is the opposite of hide-and-seek (which means everyone finds one person who is hiding).

Anyway, Jeevan happened to be the hider, so he came into our sec 2 girls WG room and hid behind the chairs. He was like "don't tell them i'm here!"...lol.

WG started at 4.30pm. We played whacko in chinese again. So fun. :D

After WG, i met Nick at the foyer and then we went to have dinner at Vista. :) Viola couldn't join us because she was BV that night.

Service started at 7pm+. During sermon, Nick went to the toilet. When he came back, he told me that he was not feeling very well and that he had vomited. Poor thing. I was really concerned. Thank God he is feeling better now. :)

Anyway, the sermon was clear, it spoke to many of us. It was about having the right attitudes and priorities, to be a certain kind of student that puts God first. Proverbs 16:9 "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps".

But somehow i was quite distracted that night during service. There's something inside me which makes me feel so worried and scared of tomorrow. I search for an important thing but i just can't find it...and i don't even know what i am looking for. I keep praying about it but i still don't know. All i know is that i have to find that missing thing, because it is very important...it will make ___ more meaningful...it will make ___ last.

There must be more than this.

12 October: Service With a Smile :)

I didn't go for JD service because i had cca. I went to COSBT (church of singapore bukit timah) for Cafe duty. I was the runner IC (runner, which means the person who serves food; IC, which means in-charge). The Cafe duty started at 8am+. It was fun but very tiring. By the time the whole thing was over (which is around 2pm+), everyone was very exhausted. But it was fun serving God in a different way. :)

Ok that's all for now. I hope i can get my exam results soon. Bye :)

(God is my provider, my protector, my preserver.)

9 Oct...East Coast - The Kindness Of A Stranger

2008-10-09T18:24:00.007+08:00

Hi. Today was great! Went to East Coast. God is really good. He blessed us with good weather and a nice lunch. Yay :D

Well, my sis and i went cycling (we rented bicycles) and my mum and dad just went for a walk. Half way while cycling, my bicycle chain got some problems. I didn't know how to fix it. Thankfully, a stranger (a cleaner) helped me fix the bike. He was kind enough to help me, and i didn't even ask him for help. Nice :)

Besides cycling, my sis and i cam-whored. Took some pictures at the beach. And then after that we returned the bicycles and went with mum and dad to eat lunch at Carl's Junior. The food at Carl's Junior is nice and VERY filling. I was bloated...lol. Oh, and Carl's Junior burgers are so expensive! Haha.

Ok enough typing, here are the pictures. :)

My black and dirty hands; a result of me trying to fix the bicycle chains :PHaha! My sister is alone...lol :DThe beach! (i took this photo :D)

My shadow is on the left :)My sis again...haha i love this photo :DI look so dumb...haha.LOL this one is hilarious!

Ok that's all for today. Bye :)

8 Oct...Exams are...

2008-10-08T14:19:00.002+08:00

Over! Exams are FINALLY OVER! YAY!!! PRAISE GOD!!! :D

Free at last...YEAH. No more mugging, no more studying...i can throw away all my textbooks already! Haha

Also, my sis just finished her PSLE, which means no more exams for the two of us! AND i don't need to go to school tomorrow and friday. So, to celebrate, my family and i will be going to East Coast tomorrow. Yay! I love going to East Coast...i want to go cycling! :D

Till then...bye :)

6 Oct...time flies fast

2008-10-06T17:57:00.002+08:00

Hi. Time flies real quick...it's the month of october already. I was just thinking about something when suddenly i exclaimed in my head, "oh, it's october!" Silly me. :P

Anyway, i haven't been posting much lately. I had my lit paper today (which was quite ok). And i still got two more papers to go (thank God, two more papers only!), tomorrow will be my history paper and on wednesday, MATH. Oh well...

Hmm. I guess i should have posted yesterday, but then i forgot...haha. Well, just to sum up the weekends. :)

4 October: DESPERATE TEENAGERS - Stress and More Stress

Went to church. I met Nick at woodlands mrt, and then we went to church together. After that he went for WG, i went for WG (different WGs...duh).

Anyway, WG was the best! The sec 2 boys joined us because Tony (their WG leader) was not in church. Moving on, Viola was the WG worship leader and i was the guitarist. I screwed up some chords and i felt very bad...sigh.

Well, a note to Clarice: i loved the games you planned for us! They were so fun! I like the shouting part. :D Yeah...the games were fun. We ran around a lot. Yay. :D Oh and i love chocolates...thanks Mag! :)

Service started at 7pm+. Sermon was good. God is our provider, protector, preserver and PEACE (Psalm 121). There were breakthroughs that night. God is good. :)

(God, help me and guide me, i want to put ALL my trust in You.)

5 October: Sec 3 E-math...

Is not easy. Or maybe i just find it difficult because i'm sec 2...lol.

Well, i was looking at kor kor Ian's math homework and i didn't understand many of questions. He explained some of them to me but i still didn't get it. And then after a while he suddenly asked "are you bored?"...haha totally, i was bored. :D

Ok i shall go take a shower now. Bye :)

29 Sept...Singapore F1 Grand Prix

2008-09-29T16:19:00.001+08:00

Alonso won Massa! Renault won Ferrari! *screams*

... ...

Sigh what a disappointment for Ferrari fans. :(

By the way, my chinese exam today was ok...not very easy, not too difficult...i want to get A2 for my chinese!!!

Bye :)

28 Sept...any random title

2008-09-28T14:18:00.003+08:00

Frankly, i don't know what title i should put for this blog entry...lol. :D

27 Sept: DESPERATE TEENAGERS - The Painful Matters

Ok just to cut the long story short. I went for WG, then after that had dinner with Nick and Viola. After that Viola left Vista Point first because she had dance department meeting. So, Nick went to buy bubble tea and i waited for him. Then we went back to church together. :)

In church, we slacked around at the foyer, talked about school. Then Mag and Amanda came along. They suddenly began to talk about food and how much they can eat. It was super random. Then Amanda suggested that i ate 5 to 10 meals a day, and that she would stuff me with food so that i won't be so skinny. Mag and Amanda suggested A LOT of food that i should eat (e.g. milkshake, coke, all the fattening stuff). I just stared at them, mouth opened, and Nick was laughing.

Oh and Mag was very funny...edible beef gelatin! Hahaha! Nick and i kept laughing and Mag didn't get it...lol :D

Sermon. Sigh...it's so hard to explain in words. During response time i left the chapel and i just cried. Troubled troubled troubled. Gideon was very encouraging. He said "if you don't know who to believe, then just believe in God, trust in God." thanks Gideon :)

On the way home in the MRT, my sis and i kept laughing. I don't know why la...it seemed like yesterday was Laughing Day or something lol. Ethel and Erika thought we were crazy and very random. Haha :D

That night when i arrived home, i cried for 40+min straight, i think. I cried for various reason, but mostly, i cried because i felt i don't deserve God's love. I cried and i prayed...it was like becoming a Christian again.

28 Sept: I Never Blamed You For Anything, I Forgive You...

Well, nothing much today. I wish i went to woodlands church. Anyway, i went to church (jelapang). It was children's sunday today (aka early Children's Day celebration). The small children who sang were cute. :)

I never blamed you...i never held a grudge against you...
~~i trust you...i believe you...i believe that you're telling me the truth...after all, a relationship requires trust, right? just don't go back on your word...i love you forever~~

Ok that's all. Tonight there'll be F1 racing. :D Tomorrow is my CHINESE PAPER!! *screams*

Bye :)

27 Sept...This Is Our God

2008-09-27T13:48:00.002+08:00

YAY!!! I got the new Hillsong album, This Is Our God!!! The songs are very nice. I like the songs Run and Desert Song. And those two songs are currently playing here. If you want to listen to Desert Song, just scroll down, click the arrows on the red circle thing...yeah. :)

Oh and now i'm having my END-OF-EXAMS! I've already completed my english and geography paper. Monday is my chinese paper! *screams*

Ok gotta go. WEB later :D Bye!

21 Sept...My New Big Brother :D

2008-09-21T15:12:00.004+08:00

Hi there. Saturday and today were great. Yay. :D

20 Sept: DESPERATE TEENAGERS - The Private Matters

In the morning, before i went to church, i went to school for SC meeting. Yesterday's meeting was special because the Pioneer JC SCs came. They talked to us about leadership and stuff and then after that, all of us played dodge ball. It was fun...until i got hit on the head by the ball...ouch. :/

Then after that, i went home, bathed, eat lunch, slack around at home. Then...CHURCH!

I reached church at about 3.45pm. Bumped into Ethel while i was in bus 901. We went to the main sanc and then to the chapel and then to the foyer. And then the two of us dragged Mag to the chapel so that she will sing for worship...yes, Mag did NOT screw up. :D

Anyway, i was in the chapel when Nick sneaked up on me and scared me. I screamed and then he laughed...lol.

After that Viola came and then we went for WG. I was quite reluctant to leave the chapel, but i did go for WG in the end. Oh, during WG it was very funny, especially Jina. Clarice said that Jina is going to share with us a story next week. Yay!

Ok let's skip all the way to service.

Worship was all slow songs, because Jerrold was the worship leader. And Mag, you were great :) Anyway, the sermon was a hard word for me to hear. During response time i struggled. After servic i cried because i felt i wouldn't change, that i won't be able to do it. But then my WG friends prayed for me. Thanks, my sisters in Christ! :D

Well, as i was leaving the chapel, i saw someone (can't remember who) "taopok-ing" Rachel. And then someone (don't know who) said "eh, you want to 'taopok' do it outside la"...lol. And by the way, Nick was really sweet. :)

21 Sept: Kor Kor Ian! :D

YAY! Today, i got a new big brother, kor kor Ian! Hahaha! I've always wanted a big brother. :)

Ok no more. School tomorrow. Exams on thursday...sigh.

Bye :)

i miss you.

19 Sept...6 more days to...

2008-09-19T14:55:00.003+08:00

END-OF-YEAR EXAMS...

*screams*

14 Sept...chocolate guitar :D

2008-09-14T20:05:00.005+08:00

Hi. Long time no post. :)

13 September: DESPERATE TEENAGERS - Personal Matters

Went to church (jelapang) at 12.40pm for worship rehearsal. Syahir was our worship leader. It was nice to step into the Grace sanc again after a long time. The smell of under ground...lol. Anyway, rehearsal was great. Yay! :D

Then after that, we took bus 187 to the woodlands. (p.s. the woodlands church was having the Drift Rally Carnival, but then i couldn't go because i was in worship team yesterday. Sigh. But never mind. Worship was great. :D)

Anyway, when we arrived at woodlands and were waiting for bus 901, i suddenly said to Gideon, "Gideon, do you feel giddy?" And then Viola laughed. Then she said "It sounds funny. 'Gideon's giddy'". Lol random.

Anyway, we arrived at woodlands church at around 5.30pm. Went with Viola to buy lunch for the team. And i finally got to see Nick. :)

After that Viola and i went back to church. The carnival was at the foyer. It looked fun :) Anyway, after dinner we went to the chapel to do sound check. I finally learnt the basics of a 6-string bass guitar! It's so cool. Also, at that point of time, i had a sudden craving for chocolates and guitars. Jerome Quek said "Why don't you go get a chocolate guitar? Or a guitar chocolate? Oh wait that's the same thing." Lol! :D

Service started at 7pm+. I love worship. Yay. The sermon was about BGR, which stands for boy-girl responsibilities. We split ourselves into groups. The sermon was good. It talks about wisdom, and that we must guard our hearts (Proverbs 4:23). Also, Matt talked about Seth. Poor him, he's 8 months old and he's in ICU. But i believe God will heal him.

After service i went home. Saw something in the mrt which freaked me out a little. I won't type it out here. If you want to know then ask me personally. :)

(Above all else, guard your heart.)

14 Sept: Fever gone down

Not me, but my sis. She got fever this morning, so i stayed home to take care of her. Now her fever is ok. Praise God! :D

Ok that's all. School tomorrow for me is a half day...yay! :D

Bye :)